Slept Through The Night

Apr 25, 2014 08:13

I slept through the night for the first time in months. I've been meditating and doing yoga, both of which have seemed to really help me get a grip on myself.

I know my recent health scares have been about stress, and I now know problems with my face and weight can also be attributed to stress. Who knew stress was so powerful? I don't remember the last time I was able to actually relax for more than an hour.

I feel like I'm turning into a hippy. Actually, I know I am. I've found myself embracing Tibetan Buddhist teachings, meditation, and yoga; I haven't eaten processed food, dairy, gluten, bad oils, or sugar in about six months now; I am no longer a partier but see mushrooms and marijuana for their medicinal and spiritual benefits (though I haven't tried either of them in a long while); I feel a pull to nature and an intense love for it that I never used to have.

Maybe I'm not a hippy; maybe I'm just a normal person. I don't know if I fit into New York or not, but I have a plan now:

1. Study for and take GRE
2. Teach English in Spain
3. Apply to Grad Schools for Counseling Psychology.

The only thing I'm not clear on is whether to move back to Colorado for now, as I'm so miserable with my job. Fortunately/Unfortunately, I now have this phenomenal voice teacher, who is fixing everything that I was ever worried about in my voice and is one of the top ten in the country and who works with singers at the MET, and I don't want to leave him. Especially since he thinks I'm extremely talented. Also, I've started purging people who make me feel unhappy from my life, and others have moved in. I'm feeling closer than ever to Robin, and my roommates seem to actually care about me; Alex is more loving toward me than I've seen her be to anyone else, and I've been spending a good deal of time with Neha (including our trip last weekend to Newport, RI).

However, I have a number of good friends I left behind in Colorado, too, and Becca even told me to keep her in mind for a roommate. Who knows...

Much of this will be good to talk over with Poppy when I go home next Thursday.

For now, I must go to the hellish work place of mine, where I eat apples and almonds all day and come home feeling like I should just beach myself on a rock, like a whale.

music, yoga, roommates, work, traveling, colorado, grad school, becca, spain, friends, love, hippy, buddhism, calm, voice, newport, friendships, mike warren, future, new york, stress, happiness, gre, meditation, health

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