Well, I did it; I "finished" this one-year experiment as to whether I could change my life from one of depression and sadness and lack of confidence and anger and illness to one where I feel happy to live, confident, self-assured and able to face whatever the world brings ( Read more... )

Oh Rachael. I let you down. I'm so sorry. I'm sorry forever.

My greatest and only sadness regarding my family: despite all our efforts, we seem to have raised two only sons.

I'm shocked at myself, at how upset I am about everything going on here. Listening to all the rhetoric, all the cruel and biased statements, all the anger, all the self-righteousness. I'm angry about conflicting things; I'm angry from two sides. I'm angry about all the words words words words declarations from people who are saying "What I would ( Read more... )

Went to the memorial of Jesus Christ's death tonight. The talk was excellent, thought-provoking. I want to get back to the meetings but dread getting back to "religion," per se. But I miss learning and I miss hearing talks from the podium. I wonder if I'll ever be able to "hear" again, without all the negative memories and self-talk. And 95% of ( Read more... )

Recently, I complained to my current belly dance instructor that I think dance just doesn't want me anymore. It's not the first time I've said that or something similar. I attributed it to the onslaught (I used the word "attack") that I and my family have been dealing with over the last couple of weeks. But here's the thing: this keeps ( Read more... )

My son's apartment was ransacked and robbed. Along with his valuables, his video of our vow renewal. Heartbreaking. He's so young and working so hard to be successful. This is so unfair.

Bad people suck. If you're a thief and you're reading this, know that you suck and are the scum of the earth.

More accurately: wonderful followed by an ordeal ( Read more... )

There's so much going on right now: total remodel of our first floor, preparations for Bahamas cruise/vow renewal, helping friend/sister prepare to cover classes all on her lonesome, both sons preparing to start new jobs/positions the very first Monday when we return, trying to get my belly dance homework done, thinking about costuming for the ( Read more... )

I wish I could reach out and give God a big hug and enormous kiss to say "Thank you." I have the best husband any woman could ask for. And yes, this marriage has absolutely been tested. I have sons of whom I'm proud. And yes, like all children/young people, they had to learn and grow and sometimes learn the hard way. But tears come to my eyes ( Read more... )