Well, I did it; I "finished" this one-year experiment as to whether I could change my life from one of depression and sadness and lack of confidence and anger and illness to one where I feel happy to live, confident, self-assured and able to face whatever the world brings ( Read more... )

Out of the box: where the magic happens. Trust.

... has had me depressed since my college years. Every spring I have a couple of weeks of inexplicable sadness, preoccupation with the past, feeling detached. It's annoying and makes me a little angry at myself for falling in ( Read more... )

One big reason for this journal is that I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired. But I'm also tired of being angry. Are there reasons for me to be angry? Certainly; I'm sure the same is true for everyone. But one thing I've learned over the years - well, at least over recent years; perhaps over the last year or two - is that anger doesn't ( Read more... )

I'm purposely stepping out of my comfort zone to where I know for a certainty I'll be nervous and tense and perhaps a little panicked ( Read more... )

As hard as it is for me, I've had to put myself on a news hiatus. All the hate and negativity, all the bitterness and meanness really gets to me and actually affects my happiness and peace. Enough is enough already. So I'm forcing myself to headline news, morning and evening; no cable "news," which is really nothing more than hate-opinion. I haven' ( Read more... )

Recently, I complained to my current belly dance instructor that I think dance just doesn't want me anymore. It's not the first time I've said that or something similar. I attributed it to the onslaught (I used the word "attack") that I and my family have been dealing with over the last couple of weeks. But here's the thing: this keeps ( Read more... )

In addition to this year's theme ("it's what you don't spend"), I need to revive a past theme to run in tandem: The Year of Conquering Fear." This time I need to apply it to performing. I believe I mentioned this in a promise to me in my dance journal but still, the fear rises up in waves and I've only been "out" to do a studio workshop, not a ( Read more... )

To remember my promises to me and that my overarching goal is to be emotionally strong and healthy. Focusing on my day and my work will keep me on my path. Being gentle with myself ... and with others ... will allow me to remember my worth and my positive qualities.

Here's to a good day.

I dreamed it was my first day of work at a trucking company but couldn't find my way through the factory to where I was supposed to report. Since I couldn't figure out where to go, I took one of the trucks and drove it where I thought it should be going (which was somewhere in the building). Someone (the person I was supposed to report to?) found ( Read more... )