Went to the memorial of Jesus Christ's death tonight. The talk was excellent, thought-provoking. I want to get back to the meetings but dread getting back to "religion," per se. But I miss learning and I miss hearing talks from the podium. I wonder if I'll ever be able to "hear" again, without all the negative memories and self-talk. And 95% of ( Read more... )

... has had me depressed since my college years. Every spring I have a couple of weeks of inexplicable sadness, preoccupation with the past, feeling detached. It's annoying and makes me a little angry at myself for falling in ( Read more... )

One big reason for this journal is that I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired. But I'm also tired of being angry. Are there reasons for me to be angry? Certainly; I'm sure the same is true for everyone. But one thing I've learned over the years - well, at least over recent years; perhaps over the last year or two - is that anger doesn't ( Read more... )

Finally got back to swimming; first time this year. It was nice to just float afterward and I heard myself groan a little while lying on my back with my eyes closed. Although I don't get to do it every day, swimming really is meditation for me. I even hum my breaths during my laps and it literally does take me away ( Read more... )

It just occurred to me that in the space of about 10 days, I've gone from no dance (besides what I teach) all the way up to four numbers to choreograph or resuscitate and three upcoming performances. Always feast or famine with me ( Read more... )

... To be back in a belly dance class; this time intermediate. It feels good to dance with direction and purpose. I've missed it very much.

Yes! Two pairs of pants done this weekend. One thing I'm learning about sewing: it's all about problem-solving; which means, of course, it speaks to me. I get to keep my mind occupied while at the same time having some meditation time. I don't know how to explain that; it's just what it does to me ( Read more... )

... a Friday and a Monday with no classes to teach. Spent today doing random stuff around the house, including working on my long-term project ( Read more... )

A bad-weather forecast that keeps other people home. Plenty of space to swim laps and float mindlessly in a warm pool.

Aaaaah.

One of the things I love about my husband is that he dances; really dances well. So we've found a couple of places where people our age hand dance on Saturday and Sunday nights. I get lost when we dance. Sometimes I get so far away with him leading me around the floor. I don't know where I go but inevitably I "wake up" to him looking at me like, " ( Read more... )