129 - This Year's Theme ... Plus
In addition to this year's theme ("it's what you don't spend"), I need to revive a past theme to run in tandem: The Year of Conquering Fear." This time I need to apply it to performing. I believe I mentioned this in a promise to me in my dance journal but still, the fear rises up in waves and I've only been "out" to do a studio workshop, not a performance with an audience.
This fear of performing is so odd for me. I've never been afraid of performing. It's this genre that's freaking me out: how do I fit in it without actually fitting in it. I want to be ME, not some student doing all the moves she learned in class. I want to take the dancer I've always been, meld in this new movement vocabulary and come out with something that is uniquely me.
Sounds so simple. Actually , it IS simple. What's hard is shutting off the part of my brain that continues to seek permission from ... anyone.
Therefore, re-introducing The Year of Conquering Fear. I did great things the first time around with this theme. This is 2.0.
This fear of performing is so odd for me. I've never been afraid of performing. It's this genre that's freaking me out: how do I fit in it without actually fitting in it. I want to be ME, not some student doing all the moves she learned in class. I want to take the dancer I've always been, meld in this new movement vocabulary and come out with something that is uniquely me.
Sounds so simple. Actually , it IS simple. What's hard is shutting off the part of my brain that continues to seek permission from ... anyone.
Therefore, re-introducing The Year of Conquering Fear. I did great things the first time around with this theme. This is 2.0.