So here I am two years later, and as of now things are building back up again. Me and David are done for good. I can actually say that because although I have no one there I'm not reaching out to him although he does text me from time to time I don't respond. So after 7 years me and Kyle finally gave it a short. And he went back to his child's ( Read more... )

This kid has actually become my addiction, even if I have all this fucking anger building up in me the wanting him there actually can match it. He treats me like total shit but I just keep coming back for me because some stupid side of me loves him? I don't have anywhere to stay while my brother comes and that's really killing me inside. I was ( Read more... )

Why is shit so fucking complicated? I know now that me and david can basically never be I've just been being stupid in trying to forget everything that has happened I should just move on you know? Force myself to forget all hopes of me and him, the sad part is wanting it even though I know I shouldn't but I suppose that's the power of love. I feel ( Read more... )

Blah, well me and david decided to just not talk not because we weren't working or we had to many problems but just because I'm a constant reminder of all I've done to him and how I've hurt him. And now I can prove to him that I only want him because I'm not going to date or be with anyone. Fuck that I know how much problems that caused and besides ( Read more... )

Well now I'm going to try yet again to stick around with David although I know its killing me. But I'm boy satisfied with my effort so I'm going to give it a shot if I find myself not dealing with it again then I'm done for good and I hope you guys and remind me of that...

Well David called me while I was watching a movie with my sister today and I couldn't speak obviously and he sounded so happy so it mad me anxious to talk to him. Once the movie finished I went ahead and called him only to find him kinds bummed and not in the mood to talk which sucks cause the whole movie it was just building up to calling him and ( Read more... )

Okay so life has been okay. Me and David are okay I suppose still not together but I know that's not going to happen anytime soon. I'm just glad to have him there in whatever way that is. The fair is coming WOOO! Lol me and my family are going on Friday David is coming and so is Alexia and her peoples. Its going to be a huge gang super fucking fun ( Read more... )

Good so far. I got a new phone me and my mom don't argue as much and me and Davids relationship is kinda working out for the both of us. Me and my sister are gettune along great and having lots of fun. My job is still gay and I haven't worked in two weeks by choice. I'm currently looking for a new job so if anyone knows anywhere hiring let me know ( Read more... )

Well I haven't wrote here in almost a year... But Alexia forced me to so here I go. I lost the most important thing in my life today, which caused me to take my life. I was not successful and am now about to start seeing a shrink...FORCED. Other then that life is shit as always. I've become really depressed and don't go out much, I expect it to ( Read more... )

Hmmm. So ive been gone for so long you guys! And i know that no one ever read this thing anymore, but what the hell. ummm i tried something new today i did this whole geisha hair thing (in reality i got to lazy to finish straighting my hair) i love trying new things. it makes me happen to have a change in my life infact its actually really just a ( Read more... )