its been so long ......i dont even know anymore. my husband and i hit the breaking point with his family and decided that..wed be better off seperate and away from them. so since jan 10th hes been sleeping on the floor at an uncles house and im sleeping on a couch at my mothers. although neither of us sleeps much. my mother goes in and out at all ( Read more... )

I was gonna answer your reply to my last post but i figured i was gonna post whats new anyway. but i agree with you i need to see a therapist because everyone ELSE is dragging me down. im not being self destructive but even my therapist thinks its me and no others. i learned something about myself. i let myself get sucked into drama. even though it ( Read more... )

i dont know why im writing no one else seems to but i guess i gotta get it out somewhere. i just cant seem to get it together. the spa STILL hasnt called me back. 3 interviews 6 weeks....how long does it take honestly? i better get the job after all the waiting they made me do. im so hungry i have the stress munchies. im refusing to eat cause i hit ( Read more... )

i give up. jr and i are trying so hard and keep getting pushed back by our families. is it because they want to lock us into their misery? is it because they are jealous we have the potential to succeed? i dont know. i went on a THIRD interview for the spa. i hope all these weeks of waiting means they really want me to work their. i should hear ( Read more... )

I STILL havent heard back from the spa. its been a few weeks. i kept calling to find out and they kept calling to say they havent made a decision. kept giving me other dates when they would know. they kept calling to push back. you'll know by fri....youll know by tuesday tuesday came and went and not even a meesage telling me know. still nothing. i ( Read more... )

What a week. I worked my ass off last week and did a damn good job keeping up with sales at work i busted my ass and did everything i was asked to do. so why when i got annette came back from her mtgs i was just blown off. and then she makes her schedule and my hours are cut to 22 instead of 26. i cant live on that anymore. i cant live now. so i ( Read more... )

this week has been so hectic every time i think i get a day to rest i am sorely mistaken. jr started the new job and has been working his butt off but hes been working around here and calls me when he goes on lunch makes me bring him things. things i cant afford. gas i cant afford. but its ok as long as he gets that paycheck and hooks me up i can ( Read more... )

Jr got the job jr got the job thank god all mighty jr got the job. hes working for a company thats kinda county kind of not. hes a traffic control flagger....so he goes to sites where road construction is being done and sets up cones and waves the traffic around. hes been in belmar the last 2 days and hasnt had to wave traffic. he sits on the ( Read more... )

i dont think im going to get anything out of therapy. she just makes me blab and doesnt say anything and then insists on breathing excercises. you must learn to breathe from the diaphragm. lady im a theater person im well aware of relaxation excersises. im here because they dont work anymore. im developing mild OCD. i have to make angela pick what ( Read more... )

i went for another visit today. i look forward to the visits simply because Dr. Waters will identify and listen to me not contradict me. EVERYONE contradicts me...my mother sisters him his family well....almost everyone my friends agree with me. unfortunatly i dont see them on a daily basis and get the reassurance i used to...which coincidently ( Read more... )