a long time
its been so long ......i dont even know anymore. my husband and i hit the breaking point with his family and decided that..wed be better off seperate and away from them. so since jan 10th hes been sleeping on the floor at an uncles house and im sleeping on a couch at my mothers. although neither of us sleeps much. my mother goes in and out at all hours and is refreshed on 3 hours of sleep. im one of those poeple who needs her 8 hours and cant get it cause she wants to watch tv at 830 am when im just finally getting in a good rest. and talks to me the whole time. he has to drive all night with our uncle to keep him awake while he works driving a cab. he goes to bed at 9am and wakes up fresh by 12 and my hubby is struggling to catch a break though his snores. both of us have people puching us cmon wake up do somehting. but we are so sluggish and irritable that nothing is accomplished and we blow up and then get told....well your living in my house what more do you want. all we want is to live quietly and be left alone. most night me and the kids dont eat cause there is nothing in the house resembling dinner and mom says she is shopping but is really on a date and comes home with milk and bread. yeah that helps my diet a lot sugary milk and squishy white bread. i play chauffer and she plays the martyr, cause im such an inconvenience when i clean her house and pick up her kids then go to work come home cook help them with their homework and make sure her laundry is done before she comes home. so who did all this crap before i moved back in? and being away from jr is sooooooo hard. i cry every night cause i just want to curl up with him. watch a movie. some nights we would be up all night making each other laugh like kids at a sleep over when we were supposed to be resting for work the next day. some nights at 3 am we would decide we were hungry and sneak out to an all night diner. some nights we'd conk out and wake up all tangled up....i miss that intimacy. that closeness. we know were not cheating but we feel so distant. and no one understands oh get over it they say. no husband and wife need to be with each other 24/7. yes but most of them roll over at some point in the night and their spouse is there. most of them dont seperate for so long. whatever....they just feel special for helping us out in our hour of need. they like to hold it over our heads. like we dont give back in our own ways....fucking dictators....