Sick to my stomach....
i give up. jr and i are trying so hard and keep getting pushed back by our families. is it because they want to lock us into their misery? is it because they are jealous we have the potential to succeed? i dont know. i went on a THIRD interview for the spa. i hope all these weeks of waiting means they really want me to work their. i should hear something by the end of the week. jrs doing everything he can to help and work and pay off all the bills. his family keeps shoving him down into the bowels. really matt anthony and boo. they say we do nothing o help.i said we? i dont live here anymore remember? that ship has sailed. i then got called a fat fuck. jrs mom stood up for me. the holiday got ruined and ive been feeling sick to my stomach since friday. nothing but screaming and yelling. i went back to my moms and i miss my kitties i miss my husband and my big comfy bed. and when i left everything at the house magically went back to normal. it always happens that way. i dont get it. am i that bad that i just irritate those around me without even speaking to them? i dont know. i have a headache. at least i only work 3 hours tomorrow and i dont have to be there till 5. i think im gonna lay around with the kids in my jammies. :::sigh:::