Last night I had a moment of clarity. A realization of something totally true for me, although in this sense it was completely applicable to someone else too. I realized last night as i was talking to my friend about how much she feels like she's changed and grown this year and how scared she is that when she goes back to her hometown she's going ( Read more... )

today i woke up in bed with amber and ginevra and absolutely did not want to get out. in fact i wanted to just disappear from the face of the planet. lately i've been feeling pretty angsty. not wanting to do anything. the weather doesn't really seem to matter. i've been late to everything and missing every deadline. i have so many projects, ( Read more... )

Midnight:4/22-4//23 ( Read more... )

the past week has been one of the best...i wish i could properly capture the emotions so strongly coursing through my veins. i'm falling for an amazing girl and got into the perfect school. i haven't slept in my own bed in a week and enjoyed a relaxing, de-stressing three-day weekend. it's city year for kids right now and so i am thoroughly ( Read more... )

insane should be the word of this year. i don't think i've ever been so tired and busy and messed up about everything in my entire life. deadlines, daily briefing, templates, sustainable programs and materials. i've never been so exhausted ever. it's good i guess. i mean i know i'm doing good things but it's just hard. every day is an invigorating ( Read more... )

my life right now i fucking insane. last night i hooked up with my best friend when we were fucked up out of our minds. it was bound to happen and now at least we know how little chemistry we have so now we can stop wondering and just be thankful for each other's company. i really love him so much and i know he loves me to, i am so content in all ( Read more... )

what on earth is happening to me? i'm not at all who i want to be. i love art galleries and hiking and dancing and exercising and...what i'm doing is none of that. i love these things and i'm leading a lifestyle viod of these things. i geel an insane desire to cry and i've had it for a few days now. i just wish i could figure out exactly what it is ( Read more... )

i think i've fallen. it's amazing to me that no matter how lonely i feel i can work out the kinks with the help of my friends and family and move on. but i've fallen and i'm scared i'll be hurt. i guess time will only tell ( Read more... )

so i've been doing much debating of what i would like to do with my life. and researching schools, etc. i can't decided if this new-found passion for science was just previously undiscovered or if this is still just my honey-moon phase with it. i feel like i would love to just wander through unknown territories: discovering trees or stars. <-- ( Read more... )

so september has ended and, just like green day wanted, my eyes have indeed been opened up. city year has been so amazing. yea the uniform sucks...my timbs are interesting for sure. but really, working with all the underpriviledged, special needs, and esl/immigrant youth is eye-opening and truly wonderful. so, i teach eight third grade ( Read more... )