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what on earth is happening to me? i'm not at all who i want to be. i love art galleries and hiking and dancing and exercising and...what i'm doing is none of that. i love these things and i'm leading a lifestyle viod of these things. i geel an insane desire to cry and i've had it for a few days now. i just wish i could figure out exactly what it is that is bugging me so much. especially why does it bug me so much when Asia just told me she couldnt stand being around me right now. I (!) can't stand being aroung myself right now. it sucks for me when all of my roommates are under the inffluence of some drug and i'm totally sober and feeling touchy and emotional and somber. something fone terribly wrong with stuff in my life lately. i think my lack of communication with sarah and rosie had really been fucking me up. i miss them both so much it hurts to even think about it. i feel sick emotionally right now. dad needs to tell me what Peggy said so i talkt o someone about my feelings. jon, noel, andrew, ginevra, alisha, lorraine, sarah, rosie, davi, vivian, mom, nani, stuart, dad, les, raya, tallah, pippin and sasha, grandma, grandpa, paul and david, sam, hannah, reesie, argh, friends, why do i feel so alone right now.