Hello again, LiveJournal. Where has the time gone? And why did I end up back here of all places? I guess there's nothing like familiarity. Anyway, picking up from where I left off a year ago ( Read more... )

It's been a long time since I've updated. I've thought about it several times and probably should have done it, but didn't. So much has happened. Maybe that's why I didn't want to update. I didn't want to go through all the trouble of trying to explain every little thing. Anyway, in chronological order ( Read more... )

I return home. I went to Indiana to see Caroline (I was supposed to be there for three days). It was last May that we were together at Justine and Nate's wedding - almost a year ago. Being with her was one of the best experiences of my romantic life. I thought about her often and waited to see her again as she spent the year bouncing around the ( Read more... )

Back-story: My old neighbor moved in with her new boyfriend a while ago. Two months later he broke up with her, but he had no place to live. Oh, and he quit his job. So, she doesn't want to kick him out right away. But she needs to get away sometimes, right? So we get together at my place and watch movies like we used to do. We talk a lot, but not ( Read more... )

It appears I spoke too soon. A little bit of cuddling and kissing has me walking on sunshine. It's good to feel a spark and a connection after so long. Unfortunately she's headed back to Kzoo tomorrow and I don't know when I'll see her again. However, given the circumstances I think that's for the best. She needed to rebound and I needed to be ( Read more... )

Once again I go all-out for nothing. I told myself I wasn't going to do this again, but I did. And what did I really expect? I knew how it was going to go down. I set myself up for the fall.

I'm only a little upset with myself and only slightly disappointed with life. In the end it's no big deal. Just another experience. Some day it'll turn out

I haven't updated in a while. I don't know if I've said this before, but I recognize the trend that I only write when something is on my mind. I guess that's what journals are for, but if anyone reads this to keep up on what's happening in my life, then I imagine that they must be rather frustrated ( Read more... )

Until this last week life has been great and I've been meaning to update this thing, but I guess I only get motivated when I have something to vent about.

It begins: Thursday I hit a drunk pedestrian who was walking across four lanes of a one-way street during rush hour and not even looking in the direction of oncoming traffic. A vehicle ahead of ( Read more... )

I keep having stress dreams. It's getting tough to keep up with life when I have work, school, studying, Jujutsu, and can't get a good night's sleep. I'm at war with myself. I've started smoking more often, which is a bad sign. I always used smoking as a way of self-mutilation. Destroying a part of my physical self to empathize with the emotional ( Read more... )

Every now and then I feel like a child among adults. I'm in my mid-twenties, I still have three years left before I get my degree, I've never worked more than a part-time job, and I've never had a serious relationship. ...except perhaps one: Dawn ( Read more... )