I don't want to be doing this right now, but for several days I've been nagged by the desire to record the last few weeks of my life. I figure I better stop fighting and just get it over with. I know I'll be happier with myself if I do ( Read more... )

Not sure why I'm writing, but I feel like I should. Maybe it's just something to do when I can't sleep. Not much is new at the moment, but that's alright. I've been productive and I've been lazy. I have things to celebrate and things to lament. But that's all melodrama. Let's talk about what's real ( Read more... )

And just as suddenly as I was overcome with joy I have been upended by disappointment ( Read more... )

I am happy. It won't sound like it, but I am. Certainly I am confused, but these days "confusion" has become a pseudonym for "opportunity." I look forward to figuring things out and I embrace the change that comes with it. I would say that I thrive on it, but that isn't right. It's more of a temporary high - a breaking wave. And I know it, so I'll ( Read more... )

I maintain the mentality that it is a terrible idea for anyone to write openly when they're upset. Any emotional state inevitably changes one's thoughts and perspectives. I suppose that explains my often cryptic vernacular. Still, I haven't updated in some time and, even at the risk of overexposure, I feel it quite necessary at the moment ( Read more... )

Ok, so I went to a friend's wedding last weekend and hooked up with someone. I've been trying to complete a journal entry about the whole experience, but it's going slow and I just wanna talk about this girl. So... screw the work in progress for a moment ( Read more... )

People say it's strange how life happens. It isn't. Some things make us think. I think it's usually the wrong things. But already I've contradicted myself. Something has made me think. The universe is predictable chaos. If one doesn't want to be blindsided then it is not the change itself one needs to be wary of. It is the absence of change which ( Read more... )

I feel like I should post about this. I just realized that I've been out of school for two days - and it's felt like a week. This is a good thing. I've been active and productive, which I think has made all the difference. I've spent the last two days doing home improvement projects around my apartment. Just fixing one or two little things can turn ( Read more... )

Today was the last official day of my Communications course. It didn't hit me until the drive home just how much I'll miss that class. I always looked forward to mondays and wednesdays, when I'd get to see my classmates. We talked and laughed and shared ourselves. For once I felt belonging in a group outside of my friends. Sure, they didn't really ( Read more... )

Became aware that I was dreaming during my dream last night. Not sure how. I was in a deep sleep dream. Not like the usual half-awake dreams where I realize I'm dreaming right as I wake up. The realization was very sudden. It came as a statement with no explanation. I said to someone in my dream that I was dreaming. I said it out loud and just like ( Read more... )