My knee hurts. It's nearly better, but that's the most prominent thought right now besides that I'm super tired. I just want to get back to where I was with hiking but it feels so hard. I know I will, though. I've been so consistent for four years that like 2.5 months of not doing it shouldn't be a setback.

Anyway.
I have therapy tomorrow. I am ( Read more... )

it's been such a strange few months.

i think things are getting better, which feels odd to say. I have been so certain things would just get progressively worse. The news is overwhelming still but I've learned boundaries for consumption of it so it has been weighing on me less.

i have been absolutely addicted to hiking. i cant believe that at the ( Read more... )

It is officially October. I am going on a cruise in a week and I'm nervous but excited. I think I am more excited than nervous right now because it has been so long and quite honestly, I need this. Man, this year was tough! I was reading back on my entries from high school and then some in 2020. More on the high school part later, but I was very ( Read more... )

Holy smokes.
I was prompted to look at my old Livejournal circa 2004-2007 this week after talking to this girl and finding out we ran in the same emo-kid circle and man I went down the rabbit hole.

I used to be so involved and so outgoing. Every entry was happy go lucky and me looking for someone to hang out with and it was like... I always had ( Read more... )

It's kind of weird to finally *truly* be coping with all the things that I never coped with. For a long time, I cried a lot. I know it was exacerbated by winter depression and everything, but it extended well into Spring. It's not gone, but it's better. And I'm not sure what the catalyst was for that except talking about things in therapy, talking ( Read more... )

i haaaaate this country so. fucking. much.

every day brings about new pieces to hate. i guess getting older does make you see new things or see things differently. im so frustrated. so. so frustrated. i feel like there's nothing i can do but im trying.

anyway i really need help with severe mood swings surrounding my period. its kind of weird that ( Read more... )

I really hate my mental trick to remember the password to this thing.

Anyway. Sometimes I can't believe what life is right now. It's this weird yin & yang or something. On one hand, the world is absolute and utter shit and it's about to get even worse with the economy. Capitalism, Covid, BA4, BA5, fucking monkeypox, climate change, inflation, ( Read more... )

I think I'm suffering from Imposter Syndrome.

I'm so tired. All the time. I'm so busy. All the time. Work has fallen to the side and I can feel it because lorde I'm behind and anxious about it but itll be alright.

I painted my bedroom, all the doors in my house, the cabinets in the kitchen, the cabinet in the hallway. I constructed a wingback chair ( Read more... )

so we're on the verge of world war iii and all i want to do is go to an ed sheeran concert and dance to 'shivers' with my girlfriends. like 5 of them.

while the world is having an existential crisis, gen z is sharing memes politely asking not to be drafted. i admire that generation. in my deep dive/special interest in late stage capitalism, anti- ( Read more... )

I miss being able to take an edible and chill at starbucks with nothing but writing to do.

TWOOO YEARS. 2 years. I haven't been able to go to starbucks and sit and write for TWO YEARS. I am hoping I can make one of the rooms in my house feel as comfortable and warm and inviting and inspiring as a cafe. Without having to find a good spot to sit or ( Read more... )