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I really hate my mental trick to remember the password to this thing.
Anyway. Sometimes I can't believe what life is right now. It's this weird yin & yang or something. On one hand, the world is absolute and utter shit and it's about to get even worse with the economy. Capitalism, Covid, BA4, BA5, fucking monkeypox, climate change, inflation, politics, war, domestic terrorism, gun violence. It's just this stream of bad fucking news. I got excited to see gas at $4.95 today like. We're hitting a recession soon and idk what that personally means for me. I'm trying to remind myself that the whole world is in the same situation basically. so i'll be fine and get through it. but the anxiety over this BS is just getting old. I'm also super frustrated that everyone doesnt care about covid. annnnyway.
on the other hand, my life is just ?? how did i manifest this? i just went for a hike after an enjoyable 5 hour work day then got ice cream, smoked pot on my own porch and mowed my own lawn and relaxed outside for hours. i've made some amazing friends that i enjoy being around but also am getting all the alone time i want. im reading so many books. im not afraid in my house at all. i might have a baby. we might reach endemic in a matter of months.
if half of the top stuff could go away, id be wayyyy happier but considering, im pretty happy. except my back is killing me today. i woke up and just... sprained my derrier. is that how you spell it prob not.
bandits cuddling me god i love him.
okay going to have a snack and write