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I miss being able to take an edible and chill at starbucks with nothing but writing to do.
TWOOO YEARS. 2 years. I haven't been able to go to starbucks and sit and write for TWO YEARS. I am hoping I can make one of the rooms in my house feel as comfortable and warm and inviting and inspiring as a cafe. Without having to find a good spot to sit or buy a bunch of shit.
Watching Jimmy G in the NFC championship game. Tom Brady might? have retired? but he didn't confirm. But he prob just wants his money. His 2 years post patriots were spent on a stupid florida team during stupid covid.
anyway back to writing. I havent been writing. How could i? everything is so wild right now with work and buying a house but im going to begin again soon because ive been having the itch. I think it just helps that i have a steady income because then I dont have to worry quite so much about other things.
Also im just glad i got my medical card again cause that recreational stuff sucked. there was a mega difference. i cant wait to go to ikea in like march and buy a bunch of furniture for my house.
so i just took a 10mg edible which i have not done in a while cause the recreational ones were just too much unpleasant brain vibrations i swear. I just miss the way they felt before, so hopefully this will do the trick.
i hate snow. my arms hurt from shoveling.
so this whole like unmasking process is weird. i have been doing it more and more naturally, i guess. just allowing myself to be myself without influence. I feel like i was so fearful of judgment and had to do certain things to feel accepted. but ive been just kinda doing me and trying to listen to what i want and idk its like been so good for me. i dont have anxiety and seasonal depression at all but part of me wants to get a new therapist just to talk and see if i can figure some things out i guess. idk.
uhhh. i want a snack so im gonna get that.
also yes im so fucking glad im breaking out of diet culture too because like wowwwowowowowowoow i had such problems with food and yoyo dieting and obsessing and i aint got the energy for any of that. like so sick of worrying about fat and calories.
i just cannot wait until summer. im definitely installing central air. and my pool. and the sun. ill avoid omicron and stealth omicron on my back in the pool reading books or hanging with people idk but being alone sounds more appealing right now.
i think this might be my last summer without a child so we need to take advantage. we. am i referring to me as a we. oh lorde.
i want a desktop computer.
i want to sleep a ton.
jimmy g currently winning god hes so handsome
oh shoot so my home inspection went well but now im confused as to the next step and waiting for those radon results. hopefully i can get some money off cause thatd be good cause you know paying all that over sucks. this market though. I just cant stop thinking about how I want to organize it. I think I want the office in the nursery and when i really need a nursery itll go in the purple room which i think i want to paint another color entirely. that stupid mural thing has to go.
i want a booth and shelves around the entire thing. maybe i should remove the close to create a built in shelf or would that interrupt the overall flow of the rest of the shelves? might look weird. i want a good coffee maker specifically for iced beverages.
damn i think jimmy g just screwed up and lost the game. gosh darnit thats sad.
at least mahomes isnt going.
okay idk if i have anything to say.