Today was an interesting day because I got to see at least 80% of my extended family (aunts, uncles, cousins and grandmas) today on both sides for Easter festivities. My family on both sides like to be social so we get together and eat and talk and also play games.

( Details of my Easter day and thoughts on losing people )

I get more bummed out or depressed more often lately in the last month or two. Tonight, Nicole and Yumi came to spend their weekly social visit, but I was anything but social. All I could do was lay in a spot, mostly silent, staring into space while thinking about my problems and issues. Normally I don't ever act like that around them or anyone ( Read more... )

It is funny how things can just linger in your mind for a while. Creeping those doubts up to the top of your thoughts.

( Be very sure you want to read this. Extremely dark and depressing. You have been warned. )

I don't feel like this poem is what I have felt exactly today (not to this poet's extreme), but it is similar though.

http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/i-deserve-and-i-don-t-deserve/

I Deserve And I Don't Deserve
by Victoria Tori

I deserve your hate
I don’t deserve your love

I deserve your grudge against me
I don’t deserve your forgivness

I deserve to be ( Read more... )

Floating in darkness
Faint light all around, so far
It is out of reach

This afternoon, I went to a pool party that was being thrown by some of my family's friends who they grew close to since they use to be our neighbors. They were cooking hot dogs and went swimming. I decided to get out of my apartment since my parents wanted me to go, I needed to be around people after this depressing weekend, and of course free ( Read more... )

My parents dropped off my sister to settle in her new apartment before college starts ( and probably to get away from the family too). When they got home from taking her there (I was babysitting my little siblings at the time), my mom mentioned how one of her friends had spare pink sheets that they did not need and offered them to our family. Since ( Read more... )

I like this song. Good catchy tune with meaningful lyrics.
www.youtube.com/watch

"Show Me What I'm Looking For" by Carolina Liar

Wait, I'm wrong
Should've done better than this
Please, I'll be strong
I'm finding it hard to resist

So show me what I'm looking for

Save me, I'm lost
Oh lord I've been waiting for you
I'll pay any cost
Save me from being confused
( Read more... )