I don't know what to do.
I don't know what to say.
I don't know how to live.
I don't know what is fair.
I don't know where to go.
I don't know who I am.
I don't know if it will be better.
I don't know why I must isolate myself.

I do know that I deserve it.
I do know that life is hard.
I do know that I hide away.
I do know that the future is bleak.
I do know ( Read more... )

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Sometimes, it is easier to know what we already have in life. Perhaps the world we know is not bad. Although, is this world I know still worth it?

"The World I Know" by Collective Soul

Has our conscience shown?
Has the sweet breeze blown?
Has all the kindness gone?
Hope still lingers on.

I drink myself of newfound pity
Sitting alone in New York City
And I ( Read more... )

I don't feel like this poem is what I have felt exactly today (not to this poet's extreme), but it is similar though.

http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/i-deserve-and-i-don-t-deserve/

I Deserve And I Don't Deserve
by Victoria Tori

I deserve your hate
I don’t deserve your love

I deserve your grudge against me
I don’t deserve your forgivness

I deserve to be ( Read more... )

Floating in darkness
Faint light all around, so far
It is out of reach

Somewhere down on the lakes
full of swans, ducks, and drakes,
this small ugly duckling
feared the others' judging.

Not like the other ducks,
it was different and stuck.
In its mind, it was ugly.
Confused and sad justly.

Over time, it made due
with its mind / body too.
It accepted its life
despite it feeling strife.

One day, swans swam over.
They saw it was a ( Read more... )

Life without purpose can be grim
Even without gender is dim
Hoping, searching, wishing, waiting
Praying to the sky for something
Do I have the will to live right?
Or forever stuck in my plight?
Need to find a path to begin
Maybe I find it from within

Time is standing now still
Battles appear uphill
Life is slowly passing
No place for surpassing
Dreams can appear hopeless
Why can I not progress?
Others move forward on
They can see the bright dawn
Life at times seems futile
And I wish less brutal
Hoping time could proceed
Perhaps I should concede

I was about to go to sleep but I wanted to listen to a song that I like alot lately before I sleep. It is my favorite kind of music, alternative rock. It is so beautiful and poetic at the same time. Well, this time I really listened to the lyrics, and I realized, OMG, this can describe my life's predicament.

One of my new favorite songs for a lot of ( Read more... )

There once was a boy in confusion
Who is cursed with naive delusion
Always seeking advice
Happiness with a price
When will he see past the illusion?

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( Dumb rant )

A caterpillar knows its broad design
and has a short life it cannot decline.
Growing and waiting for that special time
to change into a being in its prime.
Some become brilliant, happy, and brave.
Some become moths seeking the light they crave.
They do not know what changes will occur.
Being content is what they all prefer.
The time comes for its life to ( Read more... )