I am a very negative person who is pessimistic about a lot of things. I wonder how much different would my life be if I was not this way.

Last night, I let my frustration ruin my mindset. I was exercising with my friends at our weekly social run. I got frustrated that I could not keep up with my friends while they did their really fast run. I can't ( Read more... )

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I really do love this song a lot. I think the lyrics really do reflect how I feel too about the future and how I have no hope.

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I have heard and read this debate a lot. Do you need to love yourself before you can be loved by another, or does the love from another help you learn to love yourself?

I am a depressed person. When I no longer become busy or my mind slips from whatever distraction, my mind immediately begins to think about the many things that bother me internally ( Read more... )

I don't know what to do anymore. I am getting to the point in my transition that I will start living full-time, and I just can't find the courage or belief or optimism that it will be ok. It is pathetic that I still haven't gone out in public yet. It is pathetic that I can't feel comfortable in buying clothes by myself. It is pathetic that I can't ( Read more... )

Isn't it normal for people to want to stay in their comfort zone?

My whole life I admit that I do not often stray too far out of my comfort zone. i lived a pretty sheltered, conservative life with my family. My parents kept me from finding out about things like sex and porn till much later than other kids I noticed. I remember in 3rd grade a boy ( Read more... )

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Sometimes, it is easier to know what we already have in life. Perhaps the world we know is not bad. Although, is this world I know still worth it?

"The World I Know" by Collective Soul

Has our conscience shown?
Has the sweet breeze blown?
Has all the kindness gone?
Hope still lingers on.

I drink myself of newfound pity
Sitting alone in New York City
And I ( Read more... )

( Be very sure you want to read this. Extremely dark and depressing. You have been warned. )

I am trying to pass the time, so I decided to start watching shows on my DVR last night and this morning. One of these shows I am trying to catch up on that I like is Fringe. I like science-fiction shows like that. Well, I heard a quote just a moment ago that made me really think. It was a man who was talking about how his life use to be a mess but ( Read more... )

Life without purpose can be grim
Even without gender is dim
Hoping, searching, wishing, waiting
Praying to the sky for something
Do I have the will to live right?
Or forever stuck in my plight?
Need to find a path to begin
Maybe I find it from within