I miss waking up with the feeling of looking forward to a new day and fall asleep without having so much thoughts in my head. I wish I could sleep for a while, take a break from life until I can look towards days with a happier disposition. Right now I'm exhausted, I'm always lost in thought and every single smile seems forced. I'm tired.

I've been told that I was stressed for almost more than a couple of weeks. Honestly, I was surprised about it all. I mean I didn't really realize I was stressed. Sadness was the all the more obvious choice for me. I am sad. I know. Lately I've been waking up to anxiety attacks every time I wake up, may it be a nap or sleep. It disappeared already ( Read more... )

The insecurities are back. It's slowly seeping in. I was better then but I think I'm turning back to how I was then. Sighs ( Read more... )

It's weird. I have so much in my head yet I find that there's nothing to write. Today sucks. Everything's just hurting again. I'm so fucking tired. I don't want to feel like this anymore. I don't like getting hurt but I always end up hurt. Even working hard or giving it your all doesn't even cut it. Just really, fuck this life. I don't want it

I've been slipping in and out of my "okay" state the whole day. For a while I'm good then suddenly I realize, "holy shit I'm alone" then I find myself laying down, with no real thoughts formulating in my head and somehow things feel like their going in slow motion and that I find myself lost somewhere. Now I'm longing for a hand to hold so they can ( Read more... )

See that icon? That's probably how I look right now. I'll let other people be excited for me for tomorrow. The hype of actually graduating has faded since I was able to pass my thesis, pass my biz paper and see my name on the list of graduating students. Tsk. Well anyway I am still going to graduate anyway, but half the time I've forgotten what we ( Read more... )

Ahh I've been ignoring this for a while. Hmm, well graduation's this week. I didn't lose weight for it in fact I think I gained quite more than I should. Aish. Ahhh aside from all this I still have to get moving with my portfolio and get myself employed by the end of the year so I can actually put my Hong Kong trip into action again ( Read more... )

Ah I think I've numb it all out! So what for friendship that's supposedly there. Like what my muse say, it's moving on ( Read more... )

Another disturbing dream...I don't know but I woke up from another nightmare and for the first time I was thankful that Izzy belongs to another timezone that she was there when I woke up ( Read more... )

I seriously have to get my shit together ( Read more... )