088.
I've been slipping in and out of my "okay" state the whole day. For a while I'm good then suddenly I realize, "holy shit I'm alone" then I find myself laying down, with no real thoughts formulating in my head and somehow things feel like their going in slow motion and that I find myself lost somewhere. Now I'm longing for a hand to hold so they can drag me back to the present. Aish. Dipping in and out of whatever's not fun. I don't like it. A while ago I just lay down and had the urge to cry all over again and then it stopped. Talk about unstable.
Ah, there's no use thinking about things anymore. Eventually there will be someone who'd be sticking through it with me til the end. One who can handle a free spirited person like me who can offer only what I can. Who can be content with what I can offer. One day. Looking back, it's kind of really hard and tiring to pick up the broken pieces but I've gotten a hold of it and and gotten used to it.
So I can say I'm tired.
I should have seen the signs. It's been around for a couple of days before that day shit got real.
Ah, there's no use thinking about things anymore. Eventually there will be someone who'd be sticking through it with me til the end. One who can handle a free spirited person like me who can offer only what I can. Who can be content with what I can offer. One day. Looking back, it's kind of really hard and tiring to pick up the broken pieces but I've gotten a hold of it and and gotten used to it.
So I can say I'm tired.
I should have seen the signs. It's been around for a couple of days before that day shit got real.