Sometimes its really difficult for me to sleep and lately its been hell. I seem to sleep so much better at mark and joshs. Basically just having people in the house helps. God i cant wait for the 30th.

As it is im going to see if i can sneak a nap in their apt soon. Im exhausted.

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When i go back through this journal i realize i did not do a lot of the things i want to. However i have done a bit in my abscence ( Read more... )

So it is so OBVIOUS to me that I don't want to be a part of someone else's life story anymore. I just can't be. When I think back on my life I cant really remember too much of anything. A lot of things are blacked out and a lot of things seem overshadowed. And thats my fault, I am generally okay with sitting on the side lines immersing myself in ( Read more... )

If i took a bat to my feelings ( Read more... )

Today was horribly uneventful. Well, not horribly. I read and slept all day and then watched some Wonder Woman with Brandon. Which by the way she is the SHIT ( Read more... )

And in it we were in your  driving around. I have no idea where we were going and I dont even remmeber what we were talking about. But I missed you so much. And I told you. I cried about how much I have missed you. They were hot shiny tears. I told you I was sorry for the time we hadnt talked. But that it was the only thing I knew how to do ( Read more... )

My friends are really coming through at the moment. Its a little, enlightening that when I try to make myself right with the universe the universe makes things a bit easier on me. I may rant about them but I appreciate my friends a whole lot. I would do anything for them and apparently they would do just as much for me. I feel good inside when I ( Read more... )

You know it takes a lot to get me to stop being friends with someone. ALOT. With Sara, it wasn't that I no longer wanted to be her friend, its that I felt us growing apart. We had different ideals, different thoughts and values. And when the time came to end our friendship we could have sat and talked about it. But we didn't. I just stopped taking ( Read more... )

Sometimes if I look up I realize I have a truly amazing life ( Read more... )

I was so random this weekend. A bunch of my friends and I piled in my car on Saturday and drove to Shreveport LA to gamble. It was my first time gambling and suffice it so say kinda my last time. I only lost about 30 dollars but I lost 30 dollars and got NOTHING BACK. That boggles my mind. I would rather lose 30 bucks on some product ( Read more... )