I just dont think people get it. I want to be someones dream. I want to be what they want, what they seek. I want to special in my own right. I dont want to BE brandon, or mark, or anyone else. I want to be me and be wanted for me. I am NEVER going to get that in Dallas...i just...i see that. Im realizing that. I am not "the cup of tea" in dallas. ( Read more... )

I am just SO unsure of what is going on in my life at the moment. I think I am at a stalemate. Like...what can I do? What can I honestly do at this point in my life...sometimes I feel like I really cant do anything right now. You know some people can not constantly be by themselves and they search for other people to fill their moments. I get a bit ( Read more... )

Now I get sad that they remind me of you and I don't feel a pang of longing. At least when I was longing for you, missing you, I had something to hold on to ( Read more... )

i cant help it if i pounce when i think you are cute.

i've always been that kind of cat my dear.

I have been busy. I have had meetings to go to, people to see, random people coming back and hanging out with me. Plans that I have made. Been upset about plans that fell through. Random occurences that mean more than they should ( Read more... )

I'm tired of holding myself. Of stroking my skin. Of feeling my warmth. I want to feel someone else. And not for a fleeting moment or a mere night, but for as long as possible ( Read more... )

And I try so hard not to notice ( Read more... )

I am bitter. Or I am feeling bitter at the moment. i am tired. and sleepy. and i want someones big strong arms to hold me. I want some future guy I havent met yet to come along. Somewhere. Iuno. Just really tired ( Read more... )

My friends are really coming through at the moment. Its a little, enlightening that when I try to make myself right with the universe the universe makes things a bit easier on me. I may rant about them but I appreciate my friends a whole lot. I would do anything for them and apparently they would do just as much for me. I feel good inside when I ( Read more... )

I know i'm the kinda girl who marries, not dates, and that i love with my whole being and that I work on things when things break...so its very likely that the next time i meet a decent guy who i like i will end up marrying him...and i'm not ready to marry someone forever and ever...not that I want to be with like a ton of different men...but I ( Read more... )