Every little thing I do for you, with every little thought I think of you
And I try so hard not to notice
And I try so hard not to care
And I try so hard not to worry that you're not here.
But Im counting down the hours.
And Im counting up the days.
Im just so nervous to show this side of me.
This side of me.
- Meiko
In the end I guess I just, love you.
And that's all that should really matter anyways.
Unrelated to the love part, I was supposed to see David this weekend. I was excited. He was disappointing. It is like it is. Emotional Fuckwittage. Most times I just want to go home and sleep or sob, or be emotionally apathetic. Not sure which of those I will do tonight.
I don't even want to eat anymore. Eating is such a chore, it takes a lot of work to do. And nothing sounds good.
Sometimes, I think, if it wasn't for the likes of B and G I would never get out of my sad stupor. But they do something and I cant be sad. And I don't ever want their magic to not work.
And I try so hard not to care
And I try so hard not to worry that you're not here.
But Im counting down the hours.
And Im counting up the days.
Im just so nervous to show this side of me.
This side of me.
- Meiko
In the end I guess I just, love you.
And that's all that should really matter anyways.
Unrelated to the love part, I was supposed to see David this weekend. I was excited. He was disappointing. It is like it is. Emotional Fuckwittage. Most times I just want to go home and sleep or sob, or be emotionally apathetic. Not sure which of those I will do tonight.
I don't even want to eat anymore. Eating is such a chore, it takes a lot of work to do. And nothing sounds good.
Sometimes, I think, if it wasn't for the likes of B and G I would never get out of my sad stupor. But they do something and I cant be sad. And I don't ever want their magic to not work.