My heart is always broken and I just cant figure out to my friends why it stays that way. I cant even figure out the steps to make it prepared for the next. I am better so many days and then randomly...out of the blue...i'm 15 again.

And yet you don't call. SO I have no excuse.

Remember all the times you shut down? Sometimes it would take me minutes and sometimes hours to coax you back out. To make you laugh. To make everything better. I remember one time you were shut down before i even called you. But you picked up the phone and i took that as a sign you needed me. So i coaxed, i wheedled, i did everything i had in my ( Read more... )

Now I get sad that they remind me of you and I don't feel a pang of longing. At least when I was longing for you, missing you, I had something to hold on to ( Read more... )

Thank you so much for disappearing from my life. I understand why now.

Today was horribly uneventful. Well, not horribly. I read and slept all day and then watched some Wonder Woman with Brandon. Which by the way she is the SHIT ( Read more... )

Nothing much going on. I have been behind at work and trying to catch up. Met some interesting people in the last few weeks which is cool. Found out my ex boyfriend is moving to Russia which is rather odd (odder still that he has one of my best friends still in his phone) and my boobs hurt ( Read more... )

I got upset today, with myself, with the world, mainly myself and I thought of you ( Read more... )

So far today all is right with the world ( Read more... )

I am sore and i have another knot on my neck because I am stressin. I found a good online journal to count calories in - http://www.my-calorie-counter.comRead more... )

Can we just say that I HATE being here right now? Could that just be stated as an obvious. Now to move on ( Read more... )