sore.
I am sore and i have another knot on my neck because I am stressin. I found a good online journal to count calories in - http://www.my-calorie-counter.com
I am just tired and stressy and I am not exactly sure why. I messed up my bank account. Apparently I just cant handle having money. I really need to keep a check book.
i've been tripping out on some serious issues this morning. Namely: I woke up and i started thinking about death and dying and where i would go and then i switched over to my car breaking down and hundreds of things that i needed to fix on it THEN somehow i switched over to AJ and the fact that he went to jail so that he could be with me and i lost him when he got out, not when he went in....all this on the way to work.
And i cant stop obssessing over stuff right now. there is just so much. and I make lists and they don't really get any smaller.
i dont know. maybe i just need to calm down and just enjoy my life and im trying but but im lonely and my car needs fixing and paying off and i need stuff that i cant buy because i have to pay my car off and everyone is worse off then me and making me feel sort of guilty for it and you know i work hard to get where i am and its not like it HAS been easy for me in the last couple of years.
So maybe i should tell everyone to STFU and crawl in my bed and sleep all day tomorrow. Maybe I should just take a day during the week off to get stuff done. I really think I would feel better then.
I am just tired and stressy and I am not exactly sure why. I messed up my bank account. Apparently I just cant handle having money. I really need to keep a check book.
i've been tripping out on some serious issues this morning. Namely: I woke up and i started thinking about death and dying and where i would go and then i switched over to my car breaking down and hundreds of things that i needed to fix on it THEN somehow i switched over to AJ and the fact that he went to jail so that he could be with me and i lost him when he got out, not when he went in....all this on the way to work.
And i cant stop obssessing over stuff right now. there is just so much. and I make lists and they don't really get any smaller.
i dont know. maybe i just need to calm down and just enjoy my life and im trying but but im lonely and my car needs fixing and paying off and i need stuff that i cant buy because i have to pay my car off and everyone is worse off then me and making me feel sort of guilty for it and you know i work hard to get where i am and its not like it HAS been easy for me in the last couple of years.
So maybe i should tell everyone to STFU and crawl in my bed and sleep all day tomorrow. Maybe I should just take a day during the week off to get stuff done. I really think I would feel better then.