When i go back through this journal i realize i did not do a lot of the things i want to. However i have done a bit in my abscence ( Read more... )

I have some pleasant but surprising things happening at home. More about that in a different entry though ( Read more... )

I missed my grandparents a hell of a lot today.

I think they would be really proud of me right now though, for a lot of things. That makes me happy.

Christmas is a holiday enjoyed by countless millions. Throughout the year these people look forward to christmas celebrations, gift shopping, card sending, tey plan things months in advance and usually always enjoy the holiday and mourn the 2 or 3 weeks before they can start planning again ( Read more... )

You know the more I think about it the more pissed I am at myself for getting upset, for not having outside friends. Im a homebody I know I am. But i want more friends I want to see more people. I want to have someone on my list I can call at anytime to hang out. And now that I think about it I actually do ( Read more... )

For all that is holy shoot me ( Read more... )

My friend Sarah's dad died a few days ago. Shes been trying to reach me but some reason it wouldnt work ( Read more... )

I just feel so completely emotionally wrong that I cant even begin to breathe this morning. It's just 10 am and already tears are stremming down my face and I dont know why. Next weekend heather is coming back which means all the plans we made are out the door. Its my first weekend off in forever and i really want to enjoy it. I just want to run ( Read more... )

Maybe I really am dumb. I mean not to the point where its ridiclious but maybe im just not meant to get it or get anything. Maybe im supposed to be this way. Maybe im not supposed to change the world or people, maybe i am here purely to breathe life into someone that will do all those things ( Read more... )

Umm excuse me. My friend Mandy Bowen just got married.

Shes 20 years old...or close to that. WHY IN THE HELL would you get married right now?

I cant even remember to brush my teeth never the less get married.

I have too much shit to do with my life before I make that type of commitment.

Well, maybe not if it was to you.