I've been clearing out my HD from my old computer. The one I've had for years, and the entire time I was with Richard. I've been deleting the windows install and other crap because we have it hooked to our main and I'm installing my games to it. I plan to install 7 later when I put it back into Wilson. I've been finding little notes Richard left me ( Read more... )

Richard is defending his behavior towards her to me. I don't even know what to think but I doubt she's lieing to me at all, why would she? Beh. He never did address my question of why she thought I was pregnant. I didn't elaberate and tell him that she said that he straight out told her I had an abortion. :P. My head is all screwed up on what to ( Read more... )

I posted most of this on Myspace in my blog except for this explanation ( Read more... )

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now I just stop crying and I've gotten Luke involved because I needed someone to cry to, and I want to delete my fucking myspace and just die. I might post all the messages that they've sent me(that I can't respond to) as reminder of what I have gotten out of. I need to go back and tag every single Richard post in my livejournal so that anyone who ( Read more... )

Damn people giving me Anxiety attacks. Richard's fiancee sent me a myspace message. Which was pretty much the equivalent to "step off bitch" ....except, I never call Richard, he calls me. Apparently Richard got drunk and started "telling stories" ...I put that in quotes because I'm not sure how much was exaggerated, or even in those stories, and of ( Read more... )

...Weird, this is like the second ex that has like hopped into getting married after we split. They end up with these notions of marriage drilled into their head... But really I'm not surprised with Richard. He's apparently marring the girl so that she can keep her kid? Due to some asshattery with her ex? Something like that. I have no idea. I'm ( Read more... )

La la la. Soooooo update. Hello you guys! I've been reading your blogs even if I haven't been posting myself ( Read more... )

So, I've been spending a lot of time with Paul. Like, alot. We've actually fallen into acting like we are dating. It FEELS like we are dating. At one point everything had gotten to him and he sent me a text about not being able to do this anymore and it FELT like he was braking up with me. We talked all that out sorta...I do not even know what the ( Read more... )

I had a dream last night that I was at Richard's and we were doing good. Just hanging out and enjoying myself with him, having fun. Then someone dies and in their will, they will give me thousands of dollars, but what I have to do is stick around and make the family happy. I would have to visit and be their friend, talk about their issues and help ( Read more... )