Nov 15, 2008 21:32
La la la. Soooooo update. Hello you guys! I've been reading your blogs even if I haven't been posting myself.
Well then, I think the break up with Richard is actually complete. He seems to be acting as if it is. He also says that he will not be moving down here with me at all as he does not want to kill someone. That someone would be whomever got between himself and his hearts desire, which would be me. He does however get moody while on the phone with me and sooner or later will start trying to guilt me about how I left him and I'm the reason why I'm not there anymore refusing to acknowledge any responsibility himself. I really should not be surprised as it is just another side to his "the world hates me when I have done nothing" approach that he is so fond of. It does hurt me that he is hurting so much and that we can't seem to adjust to a non-aggressive note. :/
On another note. I lopped all of my hair off. It is now a little shorter then shoulder length. I think that in about a month it will be the exact length that I want. Now if I only had 90bucks for the dye job I want, which would totaly look awesome and bring out all the layers in my hair. Pics later I promise!
However, instead of spending it on my hair, I'm putting it into a graphics card instead. I don't have the funds to invest in a Xbox360 and a new graphics card would be a much more advantageous purchase. Wouldn't need another for a couple years. My games would be all pretty. I'm more into my pc these last few years then I have been into consoles. We pirated Fallout 3 and the only thing keeping my pc from playing it is my ancient, built in, graphics card. It's done a surprisingly good job thus far, but it is just not cutting it anymore. I may not need a new power supply for it. The rest of my pc is actually pretty nice and even if it isn't Paul wants my pc to be up to stuff as he wants to play the new FarCry. So he would be doing his best to get it functioning for those games. I may get it online or at Bust Buy, a friend of mine works there and gets a lot of things at 5% above COST, Woot. And he's sweet on me. :p
I haven't been playing The sims lately, I've just been steadily collecting more CC. I have a strange addiction I swear. I did have a reason, I was catching up to everything I missed for those months that I had no pc and then I was updating everything for AL ...now ...I'm just still downloading and starting to sort files. Someone totally needs to program a program that will display a 3d model of sims 2 objects. OR even a 2d picture would work, you know?
Edit: Oh oh oh. I forgot to report on my sudden illness. Like really sudden. I woke up with a bad pain at about the location of my ovaries, or kidneys, or pancreas or appendix ...whatever else have you in that general location. I had a very small fever as well. It hurt and I hobbled around a bit but I had stuff to do so I just dealt with it, worrisome but not the worst pain I'd been through. I finally figured that it was another ovarian cyst as I don't have the birth control to keep it in control anymore. Got my hair cut off, went to two pet stores to get things for my fuzzy babies and stopped by work, I was feeling okay. Right about then I started to feel really bad, not just the pain getting a bit worse, but weak. We head home after a fast trip into wal-mart, which I had to sit on a bench for while Paul ran in. Then we headed home. The drive home is no more then 10 minutes, maybe 15. By the time we got home, I didn't want to move my limbs and it took a lot of effort to get out of the vehicle and into the house. I sat on the floor while a thermometer was located and my temp was reported as 100.1. I drag myself into the bedroom and literally collapse on the bed, I am now unable to move anymore. I was so weak. I couldn't gather enough energy to get into a comfortable position. Could not get the energy to speak. Could not even managed to cover myself when the fever was causing me to feel as if I were freezing. I slept. Paul came in a couple of times I think but I couldn't talk and ask him to adjust me in bed or get me a drink. I went back to sleep. I slept for several hours before I was capable of speaking or moving any. and then I felt better, still a bit weak but better. The weakness I am attributing to my CFS as it is not the first time I've done that. The pain is better but unrelated. >_< For several hours it felt as if gravity were picking on only me.
games,
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drama,
richard,
musings,
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