It seems like months since I remembered any dreams. Probably because my sleep has been so terrible. I need to sleep well and deeply to "wake up" during my dreams. If I'm exhausted, then nothing comes up. My dreams also seem to go "away" for me consciously when I'm in crisis, and last year well into this spring, I was. Then the migraines hit... ( Read more... )

I had a couple of disturbing dreams recently.

A few days ago I dreamt that a red-haired girl was giving me lip and it was like I was her parent or something (blended with Ray aspect?) and I told her if she didn't cool down I would cool her down, and I threatened to dunk her head under a running faucet of cold water. I was so offended that she was ( Read more... )

I've been having a lot more nightmares lately. From my inner decorator/domestic, "Irma," so angry she was sending notes to me through couriers, to reminders of abductions past with a twist, to frantic escape themed danger dreams, nightmares are waking me up at least 3 times a week right now ( Read more... )

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Flares aside, I can't quite figure out why I always have such a reluctance to do IFS work. Obviously the severe flares make any work impossible, but even when I'm cogent and curious, I find I have a deep resistance to just sitting down and doing it. It's not difficult to do, and I enjoy learning about my aspects and working with them. The therapy ( Read more... )

I first met Frances in a very intensive dream many years ago. I realized intuitively what and who she was. I was mild to extremely depressed from age 13 to 18, and turned "goth" before it was a thing, wearing only black clothes and seeing only the bleak and unfair side of life. I actually had the pen name of Frances for a few years back then.


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I've had a hard time feeling able to access this aspect since my depression started trying to rear up and my health started to deteriorate. In addition, another aspect who calls himself "Barry" has been running interference, resentful of yet more work being created by the process ( Read more... )

Tristan is the name of a suppressed child aspect who likes to wander around and explore. When I was very young, up until maybe 9 or so, I loved to take off and check out what was around. We moved frequently, so there was often new places to discover. Eventually, however, I became too afraid of the world to venture out much ( Read more... )

I don't think I've ever had an actual session with Matt. He's this gawky, younger teenage boy (14ish) with red hair and an open face. He's the shadow of my bullied self with peers, starting in Junior High and going into early High School. I had a dream of him, though, where I was being bullied by two fat girls (I was skinny back in school, and my ( Read more... )

Wow! I've barely begun to even DO IFS again, and already I've had an aspect dream, and it related to my session a couple of days ago!

The dream started I was at some kind of Meet & Eat conference to raise money for charity. Each table had a topic of conversation to talk about at the table, and people got to choose what they wanted to talk about at ( Read more... )