Finally Remembered Some Dreams!
It seems like months since I remembered any dreams. Probably because my sleep has been so terrible. I need to sleep well and deeply to "wake up" during my dreams. If I'm exhausted, then nothing comes up. My dreams also seem to go "away" for me consciously when I'm in crisis, and last year well into this spring, I was. Then the migraines hit... again.
However, this morning I recalled details of at least 2 dreams, and dimly recalled the one before them as well. They all had a theme: Me helping teenagers run away and hide.
The second dream I was outside on a cloudy, chilly day by a castle or stone manor in the Scottish moors helping a girl run away from and then hide from these 2 men. I helped her escape, and when she was hiding I gave her advice on how to avoid being seen. Then, when the men got closer to her, I blocked her from view and said, "She's not here!" to the men. They moved on and the girl I knew would be able to "escape" once the men were far away.
From there I went on to another dream, but I was helping a teenage boy escape some sort of maze!? I don't remember the details now, and the setting was different (indoor building, not out in the moors) but the theme was exactly the same! I was assisting a teenage Aspect of me to escape a prison of sorts, then to run, then to hide, then to escape out "into the world" towards "freedom."
I have felt like I've been locked up in my bedroom for months with the damned migraines, so maybe that's what it's all about. I got meds, and I'm starting to feel better and get out a little and talking to people, and it almost feels like... I'm doing something wrong and should feel guilty for feeling better and why the fuck is that, huh?
Maybe the dreams just gave me a clue. I must have some Ray or Manager Aspects that want to "hide" me for "my own protection" or something, but um, this situation isn't cool and it doesn't protect me. Quite the opposite!
However, this morning I recalled details of at least 2 dreams, and dimly recalled the one before them as well. They all had a theme: Me helping teenagers run away and hide.
The second dream I was outside on a cloudy, chilly day by a castle or stone manor in the Scottish moors helping a girl run away from and then hide from these 2 men. I helped her escape, and when she was hiding I gave her advice on how to avoid being seen. Then, when the men got closer to her, I blocked her from view and said, "She's not here!" to the men. They moved on and the girl I knew would be able to "escape" once the men were far away.
From there I went on to another dream, but I was helping a teenage boy escape some sort of maze!? I don't remember the details now, and the setting was different (indoor building, not out in the moors) but the theme was exactly the same! I was assisting a teenage Aspect of me to escape a prison of sorts, then to run, then to hide, then to escape out "into the world" towards "freedom."
I have felt like I've been locked up in my bedroom for months with the damned migraines, so maybe that's what it's all about. I got meds, and I'm starting to feel better and get out a little and talking to people, and it almost feels like... I'm doing something wrong and should feel guilty for feeling better and why the fuck is that, huh?
Maybe the dreams just gave me a clue. I must have some Ray or Manager Aspects that want to "hide" me for "my own protection" or something, but um, this situation isn't cool and it doesn't protect me. Quite the opposite!