I never, ever thought I would be this person. Well, except for when I started to want it, but even then I never thought I'd be here. It was a catch 22, I wanted it, but not enough to do it, and even though I wanted it I never thought I would. Well here I am, as emotionally unstable as I have ever been. This was where I wanted to be, and now that I ( Read more... )

Today is Melbourne Cup day, and I'm writing at 8am because I'm guessing I probably won't be able to write coherently by the end of the day. Especially seeing as we're starting drinking at 10am. I'm a little nervous, but trying to be hopeful. I resisted the urge to start my double dosage of medication this morning. I think one pill screws me up ( Read more... )

Despite the weekend, and the 4:30am start, today wasn't bad. It almost was, it could have been, but I didn't want it to be. I was really happy that I got all the stocktake done and everything else done in a reasonable amount of time, until it hit about 10am and I realised I'd forgotten the boss's paper, forgotten to get the mop, and not taken the ( Read more... )

I try to convince myself that if I believe in something enough things will go that way. They didn't. It's always been like that.

Just for the record, which is something I've been meaning to write about for a little while now; that girl in meat unit with her nose pierced does have to cover her piercing up until she can take it out. She isn't allowed ( Read more... )

The Bolded are true, italics are my comments

Appearance:

- I am 5'4 or shorter.
I don't actually know how tall I am

- I think I'm ugly.
There are some days I don't agree with the way I look, but it's been years since I've thought I was ugly

- I have many scars.
I think I have three; one on my head from splitting it when I was a toddler, one on my foot ( Read more... )

I have a headache. I've had it all day. It's probably work induced, which sucks cause now I'll be stuck with it until I go to sleep tonight.

At work today one of the girls was blatantly insulted by a customer. She was closing for her break and some woman said something to the effect of "stupid fat, lazy cunts are probably too lazy to work" and the ( Read more... )

My ear piercing up the top is absolutely killing me for some reason. I got it done when I was like 12, and it's never been ok. It's always swollen. Now that I've had my nose done it resembles what I thought was the keloid scar, except it comes and goes but is never really gone. It's killing me at the moment. My ear hurts, and it feels really hot. I ( Read more... )

So all in all, work wasn't too bad today. I survived, and had a pretty alright day in the process. The bakehouse was fun this morning. I was on with the girl that I was first in the bakehouse with. She has her nose pierced, and wears her stud because my manager isn't the same as her manager (store services manager vs the store trading manager) and ( Read more... )

The weirdest thing happened to me last night. I ripped my nose stud out while I was asleep. I don't know how. I presume that it got caught on the blankets or something and when I moved it just stayed with the blanket. I must have been sleeping roughly. It hurt me so much that it woke me, and in my groggy half asleep state I was feeling my nose but ( Read more... )

Time moves so quickly and things just change without a moment's notice. We're two years out of highschool now, but you get Mark, Ally and I all together and we're exactly the same just in a different time and place. All we need is Charlotte and Michael, and you'd swear we were still all 17 years old sitting on the table at school making jokes about ( Read more... )