Dealing  
When you act like boyfriend/girlfriend but you're not actually. It also sometimes does lead to boyfriend/girlfriend potential.
ex. - "We're not together, we're just DEALING."

I really don't want to write. Because writing about it makes it real.
This afternoon, I have either made the best decision I could have ever made, or I've just fucked ( Read more... )

At lunch today, I decided that maybe considering me and Daniel together wouldn't be such a terrible idea. I just think that he is exactly what I need in a boyfriend. And although I probably should just focus on myself and not really get involved with someone, I can't help but think about it. It's weird because I don't know if I'm actually attracted ( Read more... )

I leave for Washington in three days,
Valentines day is in four,
And my birthday is in 16.

I don't want to be a drama queen and say my life sucks,
because it really doesn't.

There are so many good things going on in my life right now,
and I just need to stop being a baby and think on the bright side.

It's hard,
and it really shouldn't be.

Tyler and I are ( Read more... )

I don't want to sulk ( Read more... )

So, it's 3:52 am on a Saturday night, and I'm wide awake in my bed, afraid to fall asleep. I feel like I'm six years old. I went to sleep at about 10:30 pm, and slept fairly soundly, then I started having weird dreams, except they were more like nightmares. I'll start this story from the beginning ( Read more... )

The past two weeks have been amazing ( Read more... )

So much has happened since the last entry and it's only been a few days.

New Year's Day, I went to the movies with TC and his friends Ian and Jeff. It was good, I thought it was going to be terrible, but it was good. We went to dinner, then saw two movies and i don't even know what either of them were about. I kissed him once, he kissed me back a ( Read more... )

I hate that I get these waves of emotion. It comes on quick and unexpected and before I can even understand what's happening, it's gone. Maybe I'm developing a bi-polar personality.

Amanda: i hate the way things unfolded. I don't really regret acting the way I did, but when all is said and done, I hate the way that we can just pretend nothing  ( Read more... )

Last couple times I've written on here, I've genuinely been in a good place in my life. But now, I feel like things are starting to fall apart all over again. I'm pretty sure it's a mixture of anxiety, depression, chaos, and all the bad reality television. It just seems like no matter how hard I try, there's always one thing I can't get right, and ( Read more... )

Things are finally starting to look up ( Read more... )