What do you do when you get so into something, you can't remember what it was like before? Is it possible to lose yourself in someone that you can't even remember who you are without them?

I love him, but I hate that part of me that is so deeply connected to him, that neither of us can function alone.

I read the entries on here and I'm reminded of all the stuff that's happened in the past year. It has been quite an adventure. But I wouldn't even change the hardest parts because every single event, every single moment has made today, what it is ( Read more... )

We're in that stage now that like all the cards have been dealt. I know all his flaws, and he knows all of mine. Things keep changing, and it's getting hard to stay the same when time keeps going by. I calculated the other day, we've been dating like 5 months straight, like 7 months in total. New Years will be a whole year. That is terrifing ( Read more... )

We are 'that' couple. And no matter how much I hate him one day and how hopeless the whole thing feels, I love him too much to let him go. I'm hoping the roller coaster subsides. I think we could both use a break.

I miss that part of me that I lost when I started loving him unconditionally. I miss being able to stand up for myself. I miss knowing who I am and what I want. But I'm sure if I will miss him more than I miss all of that if I try to get it back ( Read more... )

I've been working like a mad person. School is ridiculously intense and things with Tyler are so unsteady. He's going through such a hard time. His parents are always on his back and he's not doing very well in school. As much as I know he loves me, he just hasn't been acting like it lately. I just don't think he can handle having a girlfriend ( Read more... )

We're having the marriage fight. It got so intense last night we stayed up for hours arguing. I got no sleep and I haven't cried that hard since Quebec. I just don't know what to do anymore. It's deja vu and it never gets any better. I don't even know exactly what I'm upset about, I just feel hurt and sad. I have no idea what's going to happen and ( Read more... )

I am so tired. I can feel the stress melting away. Now I'm just exhausted ( Read more... )

Tomorrow is the first day of eleventh grade. I have a job interview after school. My period is over three days late. I got in a fight with Tyler yesterday because we had a big dicussion about marriage. He thinks if I say I don't want to marry him it means I don't love him. I asked if anything I had done over the entire summer (i.e. breaking up with ( Read more... )

So much has happened since my last post I don't even know where to start.

Tyler went to camp for the week and I spent the majority of it being crazy busy but stressed and worried out ot my mind that I was going to be late. Techinically I should have gotten my period between Thursday and Saturday. But being the freak that I am I like to psych myself ( Read more... )