Hurt
I miss that part of me that I lost when I started loving him unconditionally. I miss being able to stand up for myself. I miss knowing who I am and what I want. But I'm sure if I will miss him more than I miss all of that if I try to get it back.
We are already on our second chance, and as much as I hate to admit it, we're wearing down. And as much as I don't think I'll ever be able to get over him and get to a point where I don't need him to love me anymore, I don't know how much more I can take of being treated like this.
I want to be the princess with the happily ever after. And I know that's unrealistic, but I was willing to settle for almost perfect, for him. But he's not even trying anymore. And I know he probably does care, but he doesn't act like it.
To be completely honest, I've been falling apart all month. But it's getting too hard. I spend more time being upset than being happy.
I just don't know what to do, and I can't afford to fuck this up.
We are already on our second chance, and as much as I hate to admit it, we're wearing down. And as much as I don't think I'll ever be able to get over him and get to a point where I don't need him to love me anymore, I don't know how much more I can take of being treated like this.
I want to be the princess with the happily ever after. And I know that's unrealistic, but I was willing to settle for almost perfect, for him. But he's not even trying anymore. And I know he probably does care, but he doesn't act like it.
To be completely honest, I've been falling apart all month. But it's getting too hard. I spend more time being upset than being happy.
I just don't know what to do, and I can't afford to fuck this up.