Tomorrow is the first day of eleventh grade. I have a job interview after school. My period is over three days late. I got in a fight with Tyler yesterday because we had a big dicussion about marriage. He thinks if I say I don't want to marry him it means I don't love him. I asked if anything I had done over the entire summer (i.e. breaking up with ( Read more... )

 Yesterday, I slept over at Tyler's. I lied and said I was with Maria. We hung out with the boys and drank way too much. I thought I was only gonna have 2-3, but ended up somewhere around 4-5 and felt like shit in the morning. I still feel like I'm going to barf. I hate drinking.

We came so close to having sex. Like so so so so so close. It scares ( Read more... )

After all those months of thinking that he didn't want, and being so hurt and upset. After weeks of feeling like such a fuck up and like I couldn't do anything right. Go figure - now he wants me back. And I know I should be furious, and not give a shit that he likes me now because, hey - he had his chance and he blew it. But I just can't ( Read more... )

 I can feel him starting with the mind games, and the texting and the sly comments. I will not fall for this boy. I will not be unfaithful. I will not let myself be one of 'those girls'. I will not not not not not make the same mistake twice ( Read more... )

Yesterday, Lina and I go to JNirs for his 'half birthday' and we decide we want to get into a little trouble tonight, so we stop and think, HMM who do we know that will be in ample supply of trouble? So we call up Matt and Tyler, and ask them if we can buy. It was so funny because they like litterally flocked at the chance to hang out with us, and ( Read more... )