Once again, I'm here at work waiting for the day to run out it's time so that I can leave and head back home or possibly to a movie. I've yet to decide. I'm also here waiting for Anthony to stop by and see what's going on in that realm. I think the basic idea behind all things is to drive toward being happy. Why I tossed that line in there, I'm ( Read more... )

Sometimes there is an thing that makes us see what we are. Sometimes there are plans in motion that can change the outcome of life and interrupt the plans that we're trying to make happen. I know that I'm not the best or easiest person to live with by any means, but have I been putting in the effort to make myself more tolerable? I doubt it ( Read more... )

I've been feeling rather sick the last few days. Meaning I've been sleeping. I would go to work, be there, then come home and sleep, then do it all over again. I've really been out of the world the past few days, and for that I've not felt like writing or even being online simply because I couldn't keep my eyes open long enough to see if/when ( Read more... )

So I've decided to call today: Operation Overlords. I've been doing pretty well so far today. Been alone for the past couple hours just to my thoughts and the occational person on the internet talking to me. But over all I've been alone and I'm doing pretty well with it ( Read more... )

I've spend a good deal of my night trying to figure out if I've wanted to post about last night. I've spent a lot of time wondering if I want to write out what I feel. I've spent a lot of time thinking about doing it. So I'm going to venture into it ( Read more... )

I was trying to figure out what topic I wanted to hit tonight. I still don't fully know. There is a lot of issues that I've been letting come to the forefront of my mind. I think that the explosion with Robert was a key element of this. I think that I'm losing my mind. But at the same time I feel that I am more sane then I have been in years ( Read more... )

Blake's going to leave me. He woke me up just now to tell me. It's about the night with Mikey. I'm untrusted. We're going to be going through a divorce I suppose that would be the best thing to call it. I now know why I tend to ruin these things early, before I get hurt. I'm going to need friends. Or at least something to keep the thoughts ( Read more... )

it's very possible tonight marks the end of my run with the boy named blake ( Read more... )

Thursday night was indeed by far more interesting and filled with more stress and emotional breakdowns then I had intended ( Read more... )