All good things...
Blake's going to leave me. He woke me up just now to tell me. It's about the night with Mikey. I'm untrusted. We're going to be going through a divorce I suppose that would be the best thing to call it. I now know why I tend to ruin these things early, before I get hurt. I'm going to need friends. Or at least something to keep the thoughts of killing myself because I'm always going to end up alone away. I'd prefer to keep booze and drugs use from going up greatly because of this. I don't want to kill myself but I know that there will be some hard nights to come and I will be nothing more than a scared boy living alone in the world again. Looking for something that I once had, never to have that same exact thing ever again.
Perhaps one day I will find my heart again and hopefully be one of the happy people that I used to be a group of. Thank God for sad songs that somehow can pull you out of tears and make you feel less like shit about the choices you've made and issues you've caused.
I'll probably need to get a new place. One with a roommate and still within a bus or walking to Northgate. I don't think that I can afford the bills and rent all by myself. I don't know though. I'll need to buy a new bed too, I bet. I'll have to get a bunch of other stuff too, as when we moved in together I gave most of it away because I never thought that this would be happening.
Alas, what they say is true....
"All good things.... Must come to an end."
Perhaps one day I will find my heart again and hopefully be one of the happy people that I used to be a group of. Thank God for sad songs that somehow can pull you out of tears and make you feel less like shit about the choices you've made and issues you've caused.
I'll probably need to get a new place. One with a roommate and still within a bus or walking to Northgate. I don't think that I can afford the bills and rent all by myself. I don't know though. I'll need to buy a new bed too, I bet. I'll have to get a bunch of other stuff too, as when we moved in together I gave most of it away because I never thought that this would be happening.
Alas, what they say is true....
"All good things.... Must come to an end."