I've spend a good deal of my night trying to figure out if I've wanted to post about last night. I've spent a lot of time wondering if I want to write out what I feel. I've spent a lot of time thinking about doing it. So I'm going to venture into it ( Read more... )

Last night when I got home from work, I sat at my desk to get some music going and to get the checkbook so that I could pay the rent. Clicking on the Apple, it nicely had a little one next to my mail program. So I opened it, thinking maybe a lj comment, maybe my mom, maybe a myspace blog alert, but I was wrong on all accounts ( Read more... )

So... my dad has yet to reply to my email. Odds are he hasn't read it yet as he doesn't check his home email all that often. But it will get read at some point. The question is will he actually have the mind to reply to me ( Read more... )

I sent this letter off to my dad via email about 2 hours ago. I honestly say more about myself and life then he has ever known in years, yet has been common knowledge to a bulk of my friends. I'm not sure if it will push him away or make him see my views. Time will tell.

Hello ( Read more... )

So here I am. Alone. The first time in years that I haven't been in bed with someone after my night of birth. I'm not really sad. Not feeling empty. Not feeling like I should be searching for a boy to hold onto or to let myself love. I'm doing pretty well. And at the same time I'm not. I'm in a state of refletion currently. Thinking about ( Read more... )