I'm not doing so well after yesterday's therapy. Doron was far less supportive than usual after I told him a lot of vulnerable stuff that I came across during therapy. I think he just didn't know what to say or do and reacted by not saying anything, which is a big no-no for dealing with me and my issues (it's how my father reacted when I told him ( Read more... )

Just got a legal notice from Park Slope Medical, for never paying the bill from my hospital visit last year. $625. I'm feeling sick and broke. In that order. Things were alright before this, though the door to our apartment building's lock was off when I came home this morning. Like, just missing. A hole where the lock used to be. And right before ( Read more... )

I've never watched someone I love waste away before. This is, by far, one of the most heartbreaking things I've ever borne witness to. My grandfather is wasting away: He's lost so much weight, all of his hair...his feet are so swollen that he can hardly walk and needs help in the shower. This is a man who used to be so happy just having a peaceful ( Read more... )

Enough with the heartbreak. I deserve to move on and be happy. It's okay for me to be single; it doesn't mean I'm incomplete. What if I could get a guy who's smart, intelligent, attractive, sensitive, appreciative, and loving? What if he had respect for himself, me, and other people? What if he had an inner calm that calmed me, as well. What if we ( Read more... )

Everything is fucking falling apart around my life right now. I'm so scared I won't be able to hold it together. My boss just got fired-the boss I love who has been looking out for me since Marissa left. I have no way to learn this song I so desperately need to learn for for Josh's wedding, and now Robin is getting all excited about it and emailing ( Read more... )

My grandfather is in the hospital, and something is really not good. My father is flying out to see him this week, so that means something is REALLY not good. Fuck.