So not being on my meds is not great. Much more emotional and not as easy to hold back. On the plus side I cried. Not much, unfortunately. I really do think I need a good, hard, uncontrolled cry. That is the down side to this need, it stifles my emotions; good and bad. I haven't cried or gotten angry or been joyful or anything. They are all pretty ( Read more... )

Decided i don't want to die.
I want a new life.
I am tired of being the way i an and want something else.
Today is the start of a new day and a new life.
Out with the old
In with the new

I think i want a divorce. I am not happy. No final decision yet. And no i don't want to talk about it right now but i think I'm done with having a room mate.
It's not even a friend's with benefits situation because i get no benefits. I work. I clean. I shop. I have no friends and no life. I realized tonight i am basically alone.
I have one friend i ( Read more... )

So I was a bit ambitious. Thinking the worst part of my cold was over. Felt a bit better and easier to breathe today.
I washed dishes and felt ok until I came to change clothes and get dressed to do more, lol. Now I'm out of breath and achy. Guess I'll take some meds and think on the most important things to get done. And maybe not do any of them, ( Read more... )

I realized when my mom told me she had to change her train tickets to Washington, and that she needed me to drive her to Cincinnati on NYE that in the 27 years Tom and I have been together we have never been apart on NYE.
Even if he was working I always went to his work with champagne, sometimes the kids, and snacks to celebrate.
So I told my mom I ( Read more... )

So the other day my emotions were nuts and I was worried and anxious and I fought with Tom and said stove really hurts things to him and was very angry with him for things that were not his fault but at the time I blamed him.
Now I know why.
I realized the next morning, yesterday, that I hadn't taken my regular meds for almost a week. Since my ( Read more... )

I guess first my health.
Had an endoscopy last week. My liver enzymes were very elevated in December. I went to the doctor because I was feeling the way I did a few years ago when I was nauseated and throwing up every ten minutes and was in the hospital for several days because I went septic after what they said was a UTI. I call bs but nothing I ( Read more... )

I'm not really sure how to start this.
I have been fat my entire adult life. I went from being in child sizes in 5th grade to having to shop in adult fat lady sizes by 7th grade.
I have tried diets, changing eating habits, exercising, etc. It has always been, maybe not easy for me to lose weight, but possible when I'm very disciplined. My problem is ( Read more... )

1. Are you crafty?
I like to think so. I knit, sew- a little, bullet journal, color, bead... I dabble in lots of crafts.

2. Do you own a sewing machine and what brand is it? If you don’t sew, do you own a glue gun?
I do. Both my machines are Singers, and a Juki serger that I still haven't taken out of the box. Somewhere I have a glue gun.

3. What is ( Read more... )

So I noticed this evening that when I get excited about something DeAnne send to get mad, annoyed, irritated, etc by it. Maybe it's just because it's happened several times in the last few days that I'm making the connection, I don't know.
I first noticed it the other day when we were getting our nails done. I got excited about green flip flops ( Read more... )