Unhappy
I think i want a divorce. I am not happy. No final decision yet. And no i don't want to talk about it right now but i think I'm done with having a room mate.
It's not even a friend's with benefits situation because i get no benefits. I work. I clean. I shop. I have no friends and no life. I realized tonight i am basically alone.
I have one friend i can call in a time of need. I have no friends i can call or drive over to their house.
I can't go visit any of my children, save one, because i don't know where the other 4 live! I don't have even an address for 3 of them. I couldn't find my sister's houses to save my life. If i have my gps i can find them because Waze knows my sister's addresses and one of my children's. I have only been invited to one of my children's homes.
I am fucking alone.
No friends
No family
No relationship
I want to die