It usually takes quit a bit to embarrass me but my face was some shade of red after this convo. I hate it when you annoy people, or put the wrong foot forward. I have done the definition of that tonight. With Jeff Parsons from the Q ( Read more... )

SOooo It's been a while. I'll try to catch you up. I'm going out with John, it's officially a month, 3 days ago. In two days is my birhthday- and no one is planning on doing anything because all my siblings are getting me one present- Cowboy boots for the trip I'm going on with my mom This summer- which is where all my tax return money is going to ( Read more... )

Today has been another day, I have just finished catching up on my journal reading. I noticed I haven't had a real journal entry, on my behalf in a while. I just have like random lyrics, and lashing out and shit. Not that i should give a full on entry of my life now..well actually it wouldn't be that long anyway ( Read more... )

I'm Fishing for Praise ( Read more... )

My head..hurts so much, you have no idea. Well maybe you do, because you may have done similar things. Anyway ( Read more... )

I feel like a walking spirit.
With like..nothing inside
Like nothing any longer can effect me because I have no emotion
Like I have emotional over stimulation..
so whatever happens now. Good or bad, doesn't matter.
I'm just blank.
Why am i typing it in here?
Oh well whatever.

I love abuse. I crave it. I long for it..if it's anywhere. Let it be known I will find it! Please! Hit me! I love it. I have a sign on my head that says *beat me down* and if a certain amount of hours go by that, the sign, doesn't appear to be working. It flashes. With floresent lighting. SO that if ANYONE sees it. They will make sure to give extra ( Read more... )

Yet another day. tomorrow i have to find another job, I knew I did for a long time, but i have really do it tomorrow if i ever want out ( Read more... )

Today...today I did nothing. I was suppose to study with Chris, but he was like "i'm working on a project just give me about 30 to 45 minutes" and hour later he was like "not quit done need another 45 minutes" and soon enough it was 4:30 and i couldn't go over then because it was too late and Becca would be home soon. So I was online. And John ( Read more... )

I haven't written for a little while I'm pretty bummed about the whole John Thing. Depressed actually. I love him so much - but not in the way I'm supposed to in order to keep talking to him--aparently. I guess guys no matter what age, Can't be friends with the oppisite sex as Harry Met Sally makes a refrence to 'guys can't be friends with girls ( Read more... )