Because of You [Chapter 12]
Title: Because of You [12/?]
Author: Sum3r
Pairing: JaeMin
Rating: R (Lemon)
Warning: Delinquent!Jae and Uke!Min = Smex / Language
Disclaimer: Plot is mine. Characters aren’t.
Summary: Min is a simple boy who was rejected by his first love. However, when he agrees to tutor a delinquent, his life turns upside down in ways he never wished it would.
Previous: [Chapter 1] [Chapter 2] [Chapter 3] [Chapter 4] [Chapter 5] [Chapter 6A] [Chapter 6B] [Chapter 7] [At a Glance - YooSu SideStory] [Chapter 8] [Chapter 9] [Chapter 10] [Chapter 11A] [Chapter 11B]
[A/N]: Chapter 12 ^^ Entirely JaeMin chapter, and the story moves along~ Warning: NC-17/Smex/Lemon. Once again, you need to be old enough/mature enough for this chapter ^^
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Changmin looked up at Jae, as the car sped through the lights, wanting to ask where they were going, where and why. But a part of him knew, knew it when the car started, knew it when he decided to get into the car with Jae.
“My place.”
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Chapter 12
The apartment was slightly chilly, dark with the city lights as the only visible light as Changmin slowly slipped out of his shoes, his bare feet touching the cold wooden floor. The windows were big, stretching from one side to the other, fully open as the curtains billowed from the slight wind. Changmin softly walked upon the floor, sitting on the sofa as he pushed his knees together, trying to take as little space as possible. His body continued to shiver, his hands clenched by his sides as he waited for Jae, unsure and uncertain about what was going to happen.
He heard the door of Jae’s apartment lock, as Jae took off his shoes and entered in, the lights still turned off. He silently waited for the words Jae would say, waited for the outburst, the anger, but the next thing he knew, he was pushed on his back, Jae fully on top of him as the older boy grabbed his waist from moving.
“Now you are going to tell me exactly why the fuck you came there tonight.” Changmin’s light eyes met his dark as he turned his head towards the side. But Jae grabbed his chin, yanking him to meet his eyes as he stared at the younger boy, reminisces of the rage still evident in him. “Right now.”
Changmin stayed still, his body unmoving underneath Jae’s, the slight shudders that continued to pass through his body as the only indication that he had heard the question. He stared into Jae’s eyes, the traces of fear replaced by placidity as he took a deep breath, haltering before beginning to speak. “H-he asked m-me. A-asked m-me and I s-said yes. It was o-okay, a-at first. And t-then-”
“So just because he asked you, you went? This is the same fucking guy we’re talking about here right? The same guy on the rooftop? And now you fucking go to him to a club? And you expect to fit right there-” The words were harsh, the tone loud as Jae gripped the younger boy at the same places, pressing him deeper into the sofa.
“N-no. I-I didn’t…” Changmin interrupted Jae, the light voice wavering as he heard the same words, the same meaning from the older. The unwanted tears he had pushed away earlier escaped from the corner of his eyes, as he looked in deep, the words pouring out to try and make him understand, to tell him the truth. “I-I never w-wanted to f-fit in. I-it was o-only o-one night. He’s m-my friend, and I-I went, b-but that was all, j-just o-one night. T-that’s all I w-wanted. I d-didn’t want this, I d-didn’t.” Changmin moved his hand, pressing them against Jae’s chest, “I-I called o-out for you, not for h-him. I c-called o-out and-”
“And…you think I’m better than them?” Changmin froze, his eyes widening. Jae reached underneath the shirt, his fingers moving against the cold body. Changmin sucked in his stomach, the gasp caught in his throat as Jae’s eyes never left him. “You think I’m different?” As Jae’s hands went higher, Changmin began to push against his chest, “n-no…”
“Just because I fucking saved you from them doesn’t mean shit-” Motionless, Changmin stared into Jae’s eyes, shock running through his body as he realized what was happening. “n-no…N-no…!” Changmin pushed himself against Jae, wildly struggling in his arms, as he twisted around in the sofa. Jae tried to grab Min tighter, but the younger boy pushed and pulled away from him, as they both lost their balance on the sofa, crashing onto the floor, Min’s back hitting the ground with a thud.
Sprawled on the floor, with his legs in-between Jae’s knees, his hands captured and pulled away from him, Min gazed at Jae with reluctance, disbelief expressed in his eyes. “Y-you’re n-not… I-I know…you w-wouldn’t...you’re n-not like t-that-”
“You don’t know anything about me kid, I’m no better than them-so don’t even think-” Jae leaned over, capturing Min’s mouth as he forced the younger boy to arch his neck, easily slipping in between his lips. He ravaged the younger boy’s mouth, his tongue pushing against the sides as he entangled their tongues, tilting his head to push in deeper. He let go of Min’s hands, reaching for his sides as he pushed the younger boy’s body against him, sucking on his lips before slowly pushing back.
“And if you think-” Jae stopped, as Min’s head flopped on one side, his bruised cheek clearly visible in the lights shown through the window. The boy gave no resistance, his eyes bleak as he stared ahead, the tears easily slipping through, falling into the floor. Jae felt it again, the same feeling rising in him as he watched the younger boy, his hands letting go of Min’s body. Min opened his mouth, but no words came out, as his body began to break apart against Jae, turning his head to look at the older boy before covering his eyes with his hands.
“I-I was s-scared…I-I was s-so s-scared…” he whispered, shaking and falling apart in Jae’s hold. The older boy was on his knees, Min’s body spread underneath him as he watched Min slowly beak down. Anger surged through him, anger at them, anger at himself, fury encasing his body as he clenched his hands, slamming his fist against the floor, next to Min’s head.
“Fuck, fuck, fuck-”
Jae grabbed Min, pushing the younger boy towards him, as Min clutched Jae’s shoulders, tears damping his shirt as the younger boy quivered against him, trembling at his own emotions. “…s-so scared…I-I w-was s-so…” Min continued to tremble against Jae, pushing his body up as he hung onto the older boy, the tears freely falling down from his face.
Jae slowly got up, one hand around Min’s back as he picked up the boy, the other around the back of his thighs, Min’s arms automatically circling around Jae’s neck. He walked out of the living room, reaching his bedroom as he kicked open the bathroom door, settling Min down on the side of the tub. Turning the water on full blast, Jae swiftly stripped Min unceremoniously, the younger boy silent as he looked on. Jae forced himself to be calm as he saw the bruises on the boy’s body, his face against the bright light. Stopping the water as it reached the full brim, Jae slowly slid Min into the warm water, settling him in as the water soaked up his t-shirt. Silently watching his every move, Min said nothing, his mouth closed.
“Take the room. And the clothes. Don’t come outside, unless you know what the fuck you are getting yourself into.” Expressionless, Jae left Min, slamming the bathroom door as Min stared after him.
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“Y-you’re n-not… I-I know…you w-wouldn’t...you’re n-not like t-that-”
Jae stretched on the sofa, his body draped across it as he pulled the invitation out of his pocket and threw it on the table. Leaning back, he closed his eyes, his emotions getting in the way of his thoughts.
“Y-You weren’t hear yesterday s-so i-I w-wanted…I... I wanted to k-know.”
Why? Jae couldn’t recall the last time he had someone over more than once, couldn’t remember when he brought home another with no plans for sex. He vividly brought the club scene back into his mind, Changmin’s blank eyes stirring him. He knew, he knew that had the younger boy not stopped him, the three men would have been severely sent to the hospital, probably worse than that as he remembered how he had lost his control.
Jae opened his eyes, snorting as he sat up. A fucking hero…who would have thought? His eyes darkening, Jae thought about how much he pushed Min, how much he had hurt the younger boy, and yet... the boy continued to stay with him.
The more I try and push him away, the closer he comes towards me. And I don’t…I don’t fucking know why.
Jae couldn’t understand why the younger boy continued to be with him, continued to come to him. He didn’t understand why Min wanted to get closer to him, wanted to know more about him. I’m a fucking jackass, I probably did shit in my entire life, but somehow he still stays. He stays. He wanted the younger boy push him away, to hate him, to hate him enough to forget all about this, forget all about him. But after everything was said and done, after everything Jae had put the younger boy through, Min still came back to him in the end, came back to him and trusted him enough to let him do whatever he wanted. And that completely threw him off.
Seeing the bruised cheek, his bleak eyes, see him break down, fall apart, Jae didn’t know what to do. For the first time in his life, Jae felt helpless staring at Min, losing his grasp on his own world, his world, the younger boy making him feel angry at himself, vengeance and possessiveness rising in him. Min brought out too many sides from him, made him feel emotions he had long lost, feelings he had chosen to forget.
Jae stripped down to his boxers, settling himself on the sofa. He forgives me. Knows who I am, sees what I do, and he accepts it, accepts it and asks to know more-
And it pisses me off - because I don’t fucking understand why.
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Changmin stepped out of the tub, out of the bathroom as he felt himself regain control of his body. He shivered against the cold as he left the steamy shower, blushing as he reached for Jae’s clothes. His hair was still wet from the bath, dripping down his neck as the younger boy draped himself in the longer clothes, slipping into the cool sheets of the bed.
Min wrapped his body around the sheets, his hair dripping into the pillow as he felt himself being surrounded with Jae’s scent, breathing into the pillow as a source of comfort as he closed his eyes.
He had always loved Yunho. Even now, a part of him still loves him, but it isn’t like before, it isn’t the same, he had realized. Min could continuously recall the first time he had meet Yunho, the first time he had seen him, the first time he had begun to fall in love with him.
[Flashback]
“1C? Hmmmm…” Confused, Min looked around the hallway, his eyes searching this way and that for any indication of where he was going or where he actually was. Pulling out the map of the school, Min tried to pinpoint where he was, but this school was much larger than his previous, and each hallway looked the same as the last.
“If I turn here I think…” Min gripped his backpack, pulling the map closer as he turned around the corner, his eyes focused on the sheet of paper, barely noticing the people who were coming his way.
Crashing into someone older, Min fell, the paper sliding out of his hands as his backpack fell, the books slipping out. “Watch where you’re going underclassman!” The older kids laughed, leaving Min on the floor as the younger boy got up, reaching for his books. Piling his books together and slipping them back inside his backpack, Min was about to get up, but a hand appeared in front him, as the other hand held his map.
“Lost?” The older boy was smiling as he helped Min stand up, Min staring at him quietly. “Y-yea…I’m not sure where my class is…” Min blushed, the red creeping up into his skin, his cheeks as he looked to the floor, shy and unsure how to treat the older classman.
“Don’t worry, it gets easier after a while.” Turning the map over, Yunho smiled when he say the class number. “1C? I had that class when I was your age. I’m Yunho by the way. Junior student council president, so you can reach me anytime if you need me.” Grinning broadly, he walked with Min, showing him where his class was.
“A doctor? Really?” Continuing to blush, Min nodded. He was slightly embarrassed when he told the older boy what he wanted to do, but he was sure that it this profession, this career he wanted to take.
“Y-yea…I mean, I really like b-biology, and I want to help in any w-way I can…”
“That’s really cool.” Looking up, Min saw Yunho nodding, encouraging him. “That you want to help out, save people’s live, that is cool, and good luck with it okay? The road is going to be tough.” Leaving him in front of his class, Yunho clapped him on the back, “See you around kid, tell your homeroom teacher I said hi, I’m definitely sure she remembers me.” Smiling, Yunho parted, as Min walked into his class, during the beginning of the school year.
[End/Flashback]
Even though they didn’t meet again, Min had continued to see him throughout school, as he watched him during the assemblies as he spoke for his class, seen him laughing, smiling, seen him determined and slowly began to love him. Yunho was nice, he was kind and unbiased to everybody, he was cool and was always having a fun time, but would be strong-minded when the times would call for it. He had encouraged him to be a doctor, hadn’t made fun of him even though he was young, that he was an underclassman. And so, Min couldn’t help but fall for him.
But now, even though Yunho was talking to him, inviting him, being friends with him, Min didn’t feel the desire he had anymore, didn’t feel the need for the older boy to love him. He had rejected him in the beginning, had left him hurt, unwanted, as though he wasn’t good enough, could never be good enough. Regardless, Yunho was his first love, and would always be, but realizing for the past couple of days and confirming it tonight, it was different, what he felt for Yunho and what he felt for Jae. Loving Yunho had made him happy, a constant bliss each and every day he went to school.
But when Jae came into his life, it had been something unexpected, as he was completely the opposite of Yunho. The older boy was an enigma, teasing him, pushing him, hurting him, yet… coming for him, protecting him. It wasn’t Yunho, Min knew, who he called out for. It was Jae. Min felt something in him, a desire, a need, to know more about him, to find out more. Every time Jae pushed him away, every time he hurt him, Min felt as though he should stay, felt as though something was pulling him back. And tonight, when Jae grabbed him, when he touched him, Min realized there was a different reason, something more to why he did it. He was confusing the younger boy, and Min knew he was left with only one thing to do.
Changmin slowly opened his eyes, uncoiling from the bed. I want to stay. For as much as I can, as much as he’ll let me to, I want to stay with him. I want to be with him. Because right now, I can’t go back, because right now, because of him-
Changmin slipped away from the bed, footstep silent as he walked through the bedroom, towards the living room, towards Jae. -I can’t forget about him, he’s making me change, he’s making me feel-
Min reached Jae, the body laid out on the sofa, the older boy’s eyes closed. Reaching out a hand, Min jerked when he felt it being caught, Jae’s hand gripping his, as the older boy opened his eyes. “I told not to come back here. So why the fuck did you?”
-I want to be with you. Will you let me?
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Jae stared at the younger boy, his dark eyes meeting his as he gripped Min’s hand. Min was wearing his sweatpants, the pants dragging onto the floor as his shirt looked slightly big on him. The younger boy’s eyes were wide, but clear, traces of what had happened erased, as though he had realized something about himself.
“I-I w-wanted to t-thank you. F-for…f-for this…” Min said, voice slightly shaking as he swallowed nervously.
Jae tightened his hold, standing up as he pushed Min towards him, pressing the younger boy’s body against his. Min had came to him, to thank him, wearing his clothes, as Jae smelled his own scent on the younger boy, the reason that he had been in his bed moments ago. Growling deep in his throat, Jae titled his head towards Min’s neck, breathing in as he nipped along his collarbone. “You should have known…that I accept something different, that I want something different…and that now you came to me-you’re not going back.”
You came to thank me? For what? Jae grabbed the younger boy, walking back towards his bedroom. You make it sound like I’m some freaking good guy, like I did some fucking heroic deed.
But I’m not. And I fucking didn’t.
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“P-please…l-let me c-cum…” Min pressed his back towards Jae’s chest, his face buried in the crook of his neck, his words whispered as Min’s lips moved against the older man’s throat. Jae’s hand was stroking him, running his hands over his cock, slick with his previous cum as the smell of sex lay pungent in the air. Min’s eyes were dilated, half-lidded as he breathed against Jae, his back arching against the older boy.
“Cum? When you came twice already?” Min shuddered as Jae continued to stroke him, rocking his body as he softly moaned, flushing against the heat. Coherent thoughts were lost, as Min felt Jae’s hard arousal rub against his back, his body throbbing, as Jae pushed his fingers against the slit of his cock, preventing him from cumming. “P-please…” he moaned, throwing his head back against Jae’s shoulder, his body shaking uncontrollably. Jae leaned forward sucking on Min’s shoulder, before sliding down, lapping his tongue around the base of Min’s neck, sucking hard enough to leave a bruise, as his fingers prevented Min from cumming.
“You sure you want to?” he breathed, smirking before he bowed his head down, biting along the bruise. “y-yes….” Min pushed against his hand, arching his back. As Jae’s fingers let go, Min cried out, the orgasm ripping through him as he jerked violently, the liquid escaping his body and into Jae’s hands as he stopped thinking for a second, for a minute, falling back down against Jae as his body shook with the after-effects. Eyes half open, soft moans leaving Min’s lips, as the younger boy watched Jae lick around his fingers, his tongue wrapping around and sucking his own cum as Jae’s dark eyes stared into Min’s. Gasping and breathing heavily, the younger boy could do nothing as Jae flipped him over, his chest sinking into the bed as his finger clenched against the sheets, his face turned to the side for the air.
Coming in from behind, Jae spread Min’s legs, as his hands grabbed the younger boy’s thighs, lifting them into the air. Min twitched as he felt Jae’s mouth on the inside of his thigh, his body trembling as Jae kissed along the sides, salvia revealing bite marks as Jae continued to suck, continued to bite. With a jolt, Min jerked up, his body arching as his pulled away from Jae, but Jae held him fast, as his mouth moved towards Min’s entrance. Words lost in whimpers and moans, Min clutched the sheets tighter, pressing his face into them as Jae stopped for a minute, before sliding his tongue straight into Min.
“ahhh…ah…ahh!” Jae felt Min throb against him as he pushed in deeper, sucking and tonguing him as far as he could go. Min tried to reel back, his body burning up as he felt Jae’s tongue inside of him, felt his mouth around him. Jae pulled back slowly, as he let Min’s body sink back down, sighs escaping from the younger boy. But as quickly as the sigh came, it turned into a long moan as Jae slipped in a finger, the second one reaching into him within a few seconds. Min automatically clenched tight against Jae’s fingers, his body convulsing as Jae slid them in and out, Jae’s body reaching forward to lap his tongue around Min’s spine, licking it. Min struggled to breathe regularly, cries slipping out as Jae pushed in his fingers deeper inside of him, his mind quickly losing itself to the feelings.
Sliding his fingers out, Jae leaned over, his fingers slipping into Min’s mouth as Min suckled on them, his body quivering with every touch. Pulling back the fingers, Jae reached for the lotion bottle, pouring it on his hands as he covered his cock with it, his body bent over the younger’s. Gripping the boy’s sides, Jae slowly pushed in his length, Min’s eyes snapping open, his body convulsing underneath him as he delved deeper inside of him, pushing in his cock to the hilt. Min opened his mouth for a scream, clenching tightly as his sides pushed against Jae’s length. Every time-every fucking time he’s always as tight as the first time, always-
“mmfh…mmahhhh…ahhh…” Min moaned against the sheet, his face pressed against it as Jae began to move faster, each thrust deeper, faster, stronger. Min whimpered, crying out as he felt Jae’s length pulse within him, his body throbbing in response.
Min’s shoulder blades were bunched up, sweat slithering down from his neck to his back, his body twisting, shaking. His breaths were ragged, his voice low as hoarse moans were heard, his body rocking to every thrust Jae did, his length hitting his spot over and over again until he could no longer function, his body responding on its own. He felt it build inside of him, felt it rush and then there- Min arched, bending his body backwards as he let loose a loud scream, cumming one more time as Jae thrusted deep into him, the older boy groaning as he lost it in the tight body.
Min’s body fell, Jae’s body on top of him as the younger boy continued to spasm underneath Jae, writhering and shuddering. Closing his eyes, his body trying to relax, Min slowly sank into unconsciousness, feeling himself be immersed with Jae’s scent.
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The clock blinked 2:15 A.M. as Jae leaned against the headboard, Min’s body curled up next to him. One foot off the bed, Jae turned to the window, turned to the sleeping boy next to him. The closer you come to me, the more I want you. And you don’t even know, you don’t even realize.
Jae leaned over towards the bed stand, grabbing a cigarette and his lighter, wanting a release. Putting the cigarette in his mouth, he was about to light it when he felt the barest of touches on his back, a sleepy voice coming from the sheets.
“T-these s-scars…?” Min’s voice was husky, slightly hoarse as Jae looked down, seeing Min watching his body. Pulling the cigarette out, he said, “From the club. Some stupid drunk asses thought they could do whatever the fuck they wanted. They’re fine, so go back to sleep.” Turning his head away from Min, Jae began to put it in back into his mouth when he suddenly froze, his body stiffening.
Min reached forward, giving the lightest of kisses on the scars, his body coming closer to Jae’s. Pulling back, he closed his eyes, already falling asleep as he reached for Jae’s hand, Jae being still as Min softly slipped his hand between his. He held Jae’s hand as he held it in back in the club, feeling the reassurance as he began to fall asleep, the rhythmic breathing evening out.
Jae continued to stare at Min, unmoving and silent as he watched the younger boy.
“A-and i-I know, I k-know that I-I c-can’t go back t-to h-him…”
Good. Because I’m not fucking letting you go anytime soon.
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[A/N]: Well. I wonder how many smex positions i can get JaeMin into before this fic is done. J/K J/K ..... *or am i really?* .... -gets shot- ^^ I hope some of the feelings are cleared up, as the story progress there will be more of course~ As for JaeHo, i know, i know. But i want to progress JaeMin first. And the world will be getting a lot smaller in the next couple of chapters XD Also, i write flashbacks a lot (u guys prob noticied) so be warned (even though its prob too late xD) <3 <3 <3 for the comments~!
And just because i can again-Pics!-
The seme!Jae and.... where is the seme without his uke? Ahhh! There is is! uke!min -runs away and gets shot, again-