Well, I've had this journal now for so many years.. and even though I don't really use it much anymore, I can't seem to let go. I've considered starting a new blog, because actually I like Gmail's version better, but I see it as kind of cheating on my old blog. I wish I could like, transfer all my old crap to Gmail, and make a permanent switch or ( Read more... )

I applied to a few jobs lately, teaching jobs. There are a lot of things I like about my current job, but they all come down to basically the people and the flexibility of my work schedule. I don't much like what I do exactly.. which comes down to killing a lot of mice and checking to see if pregnant mice had pups yet. Then again, it doesn't ( Read more... )

I wish I could start a farm. I just had the opportunity to help a friend milk her 40 cow dairy herd for a day, and I've rarely felt more instant gratification with a job. You get the cows in, you feed them, they are happy, you work hard, and you see the end product of your labor all in one go. Other jobs (like mine) are different in that you ( Read more... )

We are almost at the close of this exceedingly busy summer... Here is what happened ( Read more... )

I almost never update this anymore, I feel kind of bad. LJ was this crutch for me for many years, but I'm using it less and less. And its not even that I don't need it, I always need an outlet to think about things that are bothering me or something.. Well, everything is going pretty well though. Summer is almost over, and I feel like it just ( Read more... )

I have a lot on my mind lately, none of which is helping me sleep at night.. But first things first ( Read more... )

..Between entries.. I feel like my livejournal is just lagging lately. I guess I just don't rely on it as much as I used to in high school and college. Even grad school. But ever since I joined the "real world" I have update WAY less. Like, once a month. Which is just unprecedented for me, honestly. I ALWAYS have something to say. One of my ( Read more... )

These are the words that I must instill in my limited repertoire of self-assurance phrases.. I just have to stop blaming myself for not being engaged. Because thats what I've been doing. Thinking it was me, something I was doing wrong, not being good enough, being inferior to everyone else who is engaged and who's boyfriends really love them. ( Read more... )

Well, not much updating going on in my life. I guess its just because I don't do too much anymore.. Work is fine, this past week was slow as my boss and Allison were at a conference in CO. So I was kind of catching up on some mouse stuff that I had been slacking on and taking care of some data analysis that had fallen by the way-side. This week ( Read more... )

I forgot to mention in my last post that I scheduled a therapy session with a counselor. Went to it today and did the sort of "meet and greet". Not too sure what to think so far, she seems nice enough but did the usual counselor thing from what I remember. A whole lot of "well you think of a word to describe how you feel" and on the spot thats ( Read more... )