One thing I have learned while in this early stages of transition, the more steps I take to become a girl, the harder it becomes to live as a boy. I still have to live at least 90% most of my life as a boy, and it feels empty. It has felt sorta hollow for a long time, but I was accustomed to being hollow and lifeless for a long time ( Read more... )

About a week ago I posted this about my wondering how and when should I come out to my friend Will as transgender. http://ohka15.livejournal.com/29664.html

Last night he came over to visit me and hang out for the first time in 2 weeks. We watched TV and talked for like 30 to 45 minutes. He eventually started asking me about what I planning to do ( Read more... )

I wonder to myself all the time now: should I wait till I am very passable before coming out to my family and loved ones?

I know there are some trans women out there that shared this same sentiment with me when it came to coming out to friends and family. Some believe that it makes it easier for them to accept that you are transitioning if you can ( Read more... )

About 30 minutes ago, I got a text from my longtime friend Will while I was getting ready for bed. As a brief reminder Will has been my friend since childhood, and he still does not know that I am transgender. Here is our brief text conversation not long ago:

Will: I'm gonna hook you up on a blind date
Me: No thx
Will: Why? It's one of Rachael's ( Read more... )

On Tuesday, I went to see my endo Dr. Smith for the first time since i originally came out to him not long ago. He basically read me my blood level information. The most interesting was my estradiol count on a few days shortly after my injection, which was pretty high he stated (like 1253 pg/mL) and was really low on the morning before my next ( Read more... )

Today after work, I went to my parents' home to visit and drop off some things.
( More to read about the evening with my family and my apartment )

http://rainlgbt.smackjeeves.com/comics/1047163/prologue-1/

This is a new webcomic that Nicole introduced me to the other day. The main story is a about a trans girl in high school. It also deals with some gay and lesbian issues as well. I really enjoy it so far, so I recommend it. I love the art style.

Some of it really hits home for me like how the ( Read more... )

( This is a rant and pretty self-loathing for the most part. Stop now if you do not want to read. )

My birthday was on Saturday, December 4th. Now I am 25 years old. Makes me reflect on my life too, but for now, let's talk about my birthday weekend events.

( Birthday events and thoughts )

I use to exercise a bit each night for like 5 or 6 months straight, which is pretty amazing for me to keep up with that. Then, I stopped all of a sudden doing my long periods of jogging about a month ago. Luckily I have not really gained much weight in that time.

I really stopped for several reasons it seems.

1. I barely have lost any weight while ( Read more... )