Comments | ohka15: I need to find motivation to exercise again (and to further my transition)

ohka15

I need to find motivation to exercise again (and to further my transition)

Nov 24, 2010 22:31

I use to exercise a bit each night for like 5 or 6 months straight, which is pretty amazing for me to keep up with that. Then, I stopped all of a sudden doing my long periods of jogging about a month ago. Luckily I have not really gained much weight in that time.

I really stopped for several reasons it seems.

1. I barely have lost any weight while ( Read more... )

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publictrans November 26 2010, 02:54:07 UTC

I remember, for a long time, the only changes I could see were (a) my hair was longer, and (b) I was better at plucking my eyebrows. And that was so frustrating! I wanted my body to change to be more female - I didn't want to just get better at doing "female".

A little later on, I noticed that I was getting read as female more, and my face did look, in some imperceptible way, more female. But still the only features I could definitely see changes in were my hair and eyebrows.

And then after a long time I got to a point where I saw old pre-transition photos of me and just didn't know what to do: They didn't look like me. At all. I had no idea when that had happened, but it just made me have to laugh.

It took me two years on HRT to get to that middle stage - where I (and others) saw something but wasn't sure what.

So, I dunno. It sucks! Yeah! But it does get better... It just might take a while.

ohka15 November 27 2010, 00:34:35 UTC

Thank you for your take. I guess I am being a bit impatient. I just notice that alot of people who transition around my age seem to experience some dramatic changes after a year or so. I am just scared that this is as good as it gets. I know there are some things about my body are not changeable no matter what, and I guess I have to accept that.

edge_ofthe_sea November 28 2010, 00:42:26 UTC

One of my trans friends, Kat, has a kind of similar experience. She's been on HRT for 1-2 years and still has trouble seeing the changes. I've seen pictures from when she was "just a boy with long hair"...and I'll agree, she looks similar ( ... )

ohka15 November 28 2010, 01:09:54 UTC

I do agree with you on the clothing issue. All my clothing I have is all baggy and not feminine looking. I also have grown up so long preceiving myself as a male, being treated as a male, etc, it is difficult to see myself as a a legimate female.

Becoming and being preceived as a female seems like a far reaching fantasy, but I try ever so hard to cling to that little bit of hope.