Moving is out of the question. Right now anyway. I have no licence. We both have steady jobs that we enjoy to a degree. We can't really afford it. We still have six months on this lease. Mark doesn't want to move, but he said maybe one day. We both have friends and family here, but right now most of my friends don't really feel like friends. The ( Read more... )

I'm broken. This past week has taken me and torn me into little pieces and spat me out. I'm having trouble talking to people. I'm having trouble getting out of the house. I'll only do it if it's necessary. I'm having trouble controlling my thoughts. I am fine when Mark is here, but I instantly got butterflies in my stomach when he got up to go to ( Read more... )

Mark had Azaria here last night. Her and Rose stayed here. It was when he woke up next to her and realised that it wasn't me that he knew he'd made the biggest mistake. While this was happening I was crying my heart out at Jason's, and then I decided that I wanted to come home, and shower in my shower. I also wanted to put myself out there and ask ( Read more... )

I'm giving myself 50 minutes to write this entry. I've got no other interruptions. No loading Facebook. No talking on MSN. I just want to write it and go to bed. I'm going to start with the short stuff first.

I went to work for three and a half hours today. My throat is still incredibly sore. I got in at my doctor's, and she said it looks viral, so ( Read more... )

  Mark's two week long throat infection has now turned into my throat infection. Or tonsilitus. Or whatever. All I know is that my throat hurts like nothing else and it hurts every time I swallow and it's his fault. Azaria said she was getting a sore throat as well, which is kind of funny in a very not funny way. I feel horrible. I came home from ( Read more... )

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Yesterday quickly became a horrible day.

I came home sick at 8am. I think I'm getting what Mark had. And I was irate because I rocked up at 4:30am and there was nothing left out for me. How am I supposed to do stocktake when I can't get into the cupboards to count. So then I was an hour behind for everything. In essence it's not that bad, because it ( Read more... )

There was a boy today, suprisingly. He came and asked for an induction pack off me and he looked nice and sounded nice and he looked at me like he thought I was nice. It sent a little jolt through my stomach cause that doesn't happen very often at all. I stole a look at his name and birth date when he handed his pack back in. He had an awesome name ( Read more... )

I now have the joy of saying that I know what a sinus headache feels like. And it was pretty horrible. I couldn't even leave work early to come home and bury myself under the doona because it was so damn busy. I did get some stuff from the chemist though which did make me feel better. After that it felt like I just had a regular headache. But I don ( Read more... )

Is it appropriate to say "things are back to normal now"? What's normal? Things never go back. Something always changes, and that shapes how things reform. If you break something and glue it together you can see where it was broken before. It might look as good as new, but it's still cracked, still fragile, not as strong as before, more likely to ( Read more... )