It's been a while. Not one hour ago I got out of a six month relationship with someone who actually lived in the same city as me. It was nice. We did a lot of stuff together, we got along well. I'm not mad at her, she's not mad at me. But she likes going out, and drinking, and being with her friends, and I tend to herm it up in my cave with the ( Read more... )

My dad emailed us a couple of his family pictures from like 40+ years ago. What struck me is how clearly their individual personalities shone through. Even when they were 7 or 8 years old, even before their parents had divorced, even with a half century less of life experience, my uncle and my father already displayed their fully-formed ( Read more... )

I just read through my last post where I talked about possibly being unemployed and thought I'd give an update ( Read more... )

(Note: this was an unsaved draft from back in July--just getting around to posting it now ( Read more... )

I will probably get let go from my current job in a few months. However, I do not see this as bad thing. For the first time in several years, I am being forced into a choice ( Read more... )

I was at a party last night and had no basis for conversation with most people, instead half-listening to their own stories while struggling to think of something interesting to say. Perhaps this is why I feel "boring" around other people. I need to present a false persona, but thinking about how that persona would act takes longer than I can ( Read more... )

I feel like expanding on my last post. My job has become a joke, I feel like I get no respect and the only satisfaction I get is in designing forms and processes for a system that will be obsolete in two months. On top of that I still do not have a girlfriend, friends, or anything resembling a life. I work, come home, sleep, work, come home, sleep ( Read more... )

I don't know what I want.

This is the second time going out with this girl, and the second time that I've come home feeling like I'm about to have some kind of nervous breakdown. The first time also corresponds to the last entry I made here where I was talking about what a useless narcissistic piece of shit I was ( Read more... )

Sun is shinin' in the sky
There ain't a cloud in sight
It's stopped rainin' ev'rybody's in a play
And don't you know
It's a beautiful new day hey,hey