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[kahensenshi]

I feel like expanding on my last post. My job has become a joke, I feel like I get no respect and the only satisfaction I get is in designing forms and processes for a system that will be obsolete in two months. On top of that I still do not have a girlfriend, friends, or anything resembling a life. I work, come home, sleep, work, come home, sleep

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[michie3]

Honestly, I don't think most people give much thought as to why they go
on day to day. They just aren't that introspective. Or maybe I'm just
being too harsh on them. XD I just totally don't get 'normal' people
sometimes.

You can't say that you haven't done fun and interesting things. You play
video games, those are plenty fun ^-^ and you have learned Japanese which
is completely interesting. So just starting with those two things, what
is it about them that attracts you? You have an affinity for language?
Japanese culture? Just want to understand those games that never get
translated? XD What about those seemingly insignificant games do you
enjoy so much? The worlds, the battles, the characters? They make a great
escape for a reason.

To point out further that you have interesting thought patterns, how about
"drinking cafeteria fruit drippings that were fermented in a sewer
pipe."? With comments like that I'm sure you have more to yourself

[michie3]

P.S. - I'm good at stating the obvious no?

[kahensenshi]

Thanks Mich. In a cooler state of mind I can think rationally and realize that I'm not pathetic. But most of the time, I'm crazy. I have a deep rooted belief that something is wrong with me and I can't seem to focus on anything but my negative traits. It's almost like my positive aspects don't matter. They're still not good enough.

Somehow I just have to face what I am and accept it. I am the only one who has these unrealistic expectations of myself.

Bt the way that prison wine is actually a real thing. http://www.blacktable.com/gillin030901.htm

[burntineffigy]

Sounds like you could use A vacation, brah. I recommend going to the north shore of Kauai and relax and talk to random people. There's a hiking trail at the end of the road that leads to a waterfall u can swim under, and there's always some interesting people that came from the mainland and just campout and grow weed and enjoy life in paradise. I smoked a joint with this pretty cool dude from Pennsylvania last time I was there. Lol. He had been backpacking around for2years. Hahaha, and I read about your salvia experience. That is some weird stuff ain't it? Definitely not a recreational drug. it's hard to gain any introspective cause if you break through it's always feels like there's another entity there trying to pull you in and you have no idea what the he'll is going on after that one minute. And the times you don't break through you become very uncomfortable in your own skin. Weird stuff.

[burntineffigy]

And my Psn name is my name jarretthamada